being veri lethargic today in sch . keep wanting to fall asleep . ZzzZz. hahas!! finally ended sch @ 4 aft pe.
stayed back to watch PJC Rugby vs CJC it's their first match of e A'dvs tournament . @ our homeground . many stayed back to watch and support them . hahas . though dun understand much about rugby, only know if the ball cross the line or the goal post mean score points . hahas !!! and our rugby guys did well!! they won their first match, 0 - 30plus . not bad !!! hahas . rugby really very violent . but it's really about stamina, strength, and speed and most impt teamwork . really see their fighting spirit and team spirit . and they really gd, see the way they pass e rugby ball to their teammates fast and accurate. helping each other out of e tangles . hahas . and the ref, very cute, he dun look fit at all like some ah peh with a big tummy, but can run about in the whole big field together with e guys . hahas ! it's a gd start for them. all the best !! hahas
my papa very ramdom, he promised my family and mum this yr, their 21st wedding anniversary, we will go to the studio to take quan jia fu!! hahas !! omg !! didn't expect my dad to say tt yeah yeah !! can't wait for it . hahas . but mum dun believe tt dad will keep his promise, saying tt he sure forget de . hahas . but i and my sis will remind him for sure =D
12:17 AM
tt's wad which holds my passion, my dreams, my memories pls dun spoil it, dun damage it, respect it .
it's my last time playing A'dvs, it meant alot alot alot to me i want to end it beautifully, without any cracks, but satisfaction and how it should be played.
30 March 2009 10:43 PM
having a very bad headache now . maybe really falling ill dun feellike going sch tml. but hezel is going tohave his first A'dvs rugby match tml. really feel like watching, though i dun understand how rugby is played neither e rules hahas . buden no matter wad, all the best !! hahas
cambridge revert back our CSE IS proposal. mine gt approved with no comments. hahas . quite happy though . but there's a few ppl in our class gt rejected, but not a very major problems just need some refining and scoping??
had pe in the morning and training in e late afternoon i thought magnus is going to wack us hard today, but he's nice and understanding, we dun need to run track today. rather 5 rounds e 3 bball courts . den as usual, lay up drills. as training goes on, e j2s attitude getting from bad to worse . i'm trying to bear with it. trying not to throw my temper out . i kept quite quiet . but is really horrendous it time round, u guys really stepped across my line, way across 22nd april is our first match, we dun have so much time to fool around like how we did last time . wake up ppl. wake up ur idea dun waste mag's time or e teachers' effort. i know at the end of training, my tone is very harsh on u all. i nvr, NVR had to raise tt tone before. really too much . magnus might say it in a better manner to u ppl i dun hav tt paitence and temper.
u guys bear in mind pls, not becos u are j2 or u have tt skill to, magnus will choose u all in the 12, attitude counts . the 12 jerseys meant for players tt earn for it, and get serious with it. utterly disappointed. seriously, dun wan history to repeat itself again, not e scorings but the disappointment, and tt feeling as a failure team
no point saying sorry, do wad u can do, and do it right, make sure u feel no regrets and bad for it. value the chances given to u, it's something wad others might not get to have even they desired much more than u do .
bear in mind, a team make up of 12 players, 1 down, others will be affected, one mistake u make, affect e whole team, every single of the 12 counts, make sure u are suitable, and u value it, play it well. we are e one controlling our own fate and e team's fate not coach, not the teachers.
29 March 2009 11:18 PM
very bothered all sudden. dun know why. should i or should i not?
our class outing @ marina barrage
stupid ziyang spoil our pic -.-
still have GP hmwk . so sucky, CT just over there's hmwk . hais . buden no choice still must do
there's training tml . hahas . tired .
[i know u're not the one]
12:45 AM
08S32 Class Outing @ MARINA BARRAGE
u seem so distanced away. it's just tt i feel this way. mayb being too sentitive. all sudden feel so "stranger" talking to u . dun like e feeling. quite affected. dun know wad's wrong. but somehow, when asking u to go out, gt a feeling like "forcing" u to go. is not u ,is me feeling tt way, but i know u are not. just e feeling. i dun know why . sometimes really hope last yr sch days nvr end, though just observing from far. but it's better than nw??
other even nicer photos are with clifford . hahas. he used some professional cam
to take alot alotof photos . LOTS . hahas . we had 4 cameras with us, plus some
phone cameras too . hahas . the place realy nice, cooling, beautiful, spacious
and a veri suitable place for family outing . hahas . lots of kites flying up in
e beautiful sky . nice scenary . we cam whores like crazy . hahas .
relaxing place, but too bad, jiahao, hezel not there . and mr lee is called back
for reservist, wad a gd timing right? waiting for clifford to upload e pics on
facebook ASAP. thanks!! hahas
youth car washing @ church tml morning .
need to go church @ 7.30am.
den in e afternoon need to go settle those jersey stuff
super rush . hais . hopefully i will find other cheaper brand,
other than converse, e design this yr is ugly . TIRED .
27 March 2009 11:19 PM
one word- TIRED ! today's training like omg, lots of running and i feel tt my physical lvl drop!! ya, drop drastically compared to e lvl i am during dec gt no stregth to shoot aft running . BAD .
went to watch guys' match again . actually wanted to talk about it but simply too tired . i can just lie anywhere in e hse and doze off still need to design e bball tee . buden TIRED can't think . ZZzzzz
i cut my hiar . it'snot e way i wan it turn out to be!! dun feel like going out of e hse =(
26 March 2009 11:06 PM
putting mask now . hahas !! surprisingly i'll put mask, buden which girls dun want to look presentable?? hahas . due to consecutive sleepless nights, i look haggard . e whole face like sunk down.
and today is my last day of COMMON TEST !! i think i'm quite "FINISHED" too . hahas . as i didn't sleep for even 4 hrs ytd night, during the chem paper today, my brain like dead, overused, i can't think, or recall much, even e formulas . hahas. for mcq, is really just anyhow fill in the blanks. atleast for paper 2 section A, i still know how to do, but section B totally gone case . hahas . buden since i entered jc, i didn't pass chem once . hahas. had cse paper in the afternoon, if nothings go wrong should be atleast a S?? somehow i wrote craps in my case study hahas . i just hope i pass my econs, math and cse so tt i dun need to see e principal or HOD again . plus A'dvs coming, can't afford to miss trainings due to studies . or worst, cannot play .
went to town with candice, sam,gab and dong ma. went to eat dinner at soup spoon @ paragon, den went window shopping hahas . i saw another backpack, is cheaper, $70? yah, black colour, and is quite big . and yesh! i decided to buy tt instead of e one i saw at far east which is $103. hahas . gonna buy it on Sunday. i need a backpack for sch, trainings and also competition.
gonna CUT HAIR tml !! hahas . hopefully it will turn out fine really scare latr hair disaster . hahas . going to SBC to watch e guys' match too, Vs VJC. den back to school for training . hahas . it's their crucial match. if they win tml, most prob they will get into 2nd round, all e best !!! JIAYOU .
24 March 2009 11:20 PM
i studied for about going to 3 hours alr . not bad not bad . going to continue to study till 1am? but need to wake up at latest 6.30 am to continue too luckily tml math paper is in e afternoon, have e morning to study i haven complete studing for math actually. i think i spent the least time on CSE and math . econs and chem omg -.- hahas!! had my econs paper today, i'm quite surprised by e standard of e paper, cos i thought it will be very difficult, somehow i can do both case study and essay, but i did not have enough time to complete my essay, 9 marks fly away liao . a bit sian diao, cos i know e ans just tt not enough time but still not much confidence in attaining an E though.
decided, i not going to wait till aft A'dvs den cut hair cannot stand it. hahas . but i not going to cut short, only cut short e fringe and shorten e back by 3 cm?? so tt i still can tie my hair during e competition . but e length like not long, but also not very short either, like neither here nor there =.= buden no choice, dun wan to play a'dvs with hair flying and sticking on my face . hahas !! havin headache again... hopefully i dun fall sick. hahas . go burn oil le . JIAYOU !!
23 March 2009 10:58 PM
just took a 2 hour nap. hahas . going to start studing aft i post this . it's gonna be the start of the tiring 3 days "battle" of common test !!! means, it's gonna be nightmares and lack of sleep days for me till my last paper on thursday . and i had two H2 papers on thursday!! CSE and Chem . omg =.=
just now went to watch pjc guys' a'dvs match . vs IJC . hahas. at first i thought pjc will win . but they didn't . it seem everyone was quite anxious and off form for the first 2 quarters . their play is quite in a mess and def also keep having loopholes, thus e ijc's no.10 had chances to shoot in more than 5 3-pointers if i'm not wrong. yah no.10 veri zhun . and ijc gt this angmoh guy, though angmoh, actually i find him not really a very big threat inside, but somehow ijc use him and the shooter to divert e def's attention .
but pjc gt back their tempo and fought back . actually losing about 16 pts? den catch up, losing 8 points . but the points keep varying, we outsider see alr also gan jiong . they made alot of deadly and stupid mistakes too . but last quarter, they really fought damn hard, had quite a few success full court man man def, and gt a few possesions too . but somehow or rather, e rim dun like them lah, quite a no. of balls just bounce out or wash out of e rim when it seem tt is going in le . and the ref, like cross eyes or something . hahas . he's not bias, but his vision just gt some problem seriously . pjc lost by 7pts can see the disappointment on their face. if their first 2 quarters, they play as gd as 3rd and 4th quarters, i might had just won alr . although they didn't play very well, but i'm quite impressed by their full court man def, and also their undying spirit . non of them gave up hope, even when they lost more than half of wad their opp scored, they still fight on . and e teachers and players keep cheering them on,mr kevin ang came to support them too . hahas . and they aren't tt bad too, huihan improved, he's getting stronger. and some others too .
when i watch e match, i and alicia gt e same feeling . all sudden felt scared and pressured. we saw e guys doing alot of stupid mistakes, stupid passes and decisions. we scared we will do e same stupid mistakes too . and i'm so sttempted to play A'dvs, e feel of playing on tt court, scoring, defending ur opp. e sound of e whistles, e cheers and applause . buden somehow, i shouldn't think so much . believe in myself, wad's e most impt now is not how gd or skillfull, but i think how calm and relax can i be during e game . i need to be calm and have a clear mind. tt's e best way i'll be able to help e team and do well as a player and captain . JIAYOU !! hahas . okie, back to my notes
22 March 2009 10:16 PM
omg . now really not much motivation left. all sudden econs seem so dead to me . i rather study for chem den econs . but i can't, econs paper first . argh . really lots to study . simply losing interest. hahas . kai ye che tonight again . ytd's ye che somehow or rather seem to broke down half way hahas!! buden today can't afford to . no time -.-ll
oh, in e morning went to see sin seh, e gombak de i dun wan go see some weird sinseh alr. back to this old one . hahas!! he helped to to rub and pull e gen. a bit kong bu ah .cos when he rub, u can feel e gen or e bone like rubbing against each other, gt tt "crak crak" sound . hahas!! but i feel much better aft tt though . e sin seh say, i did not really hurt my ankle, but is e whole gen from spinal cord tt area downwards although not very serious, but still must avoid too vigorous exercises. hahas!! i was think, how to?? i play bball and i need to do a very thorough warm up exercise, in sequence, from waist, den e thighs, calf, butt and den ankle first time i was asked to do warm up in sequence . i need to tape my ankle whenever i play.
okie, back to econs -.-lllllll
3:12 PM
ahhh.... having headache when i see my econs notes hahas!!! i'm still left with 3 sets of notes not touched yet . really can't stay at home to study, i can't sit still on e chair for atleast 1.5 hrs . hahas . keep go kitchen find things to eat and drink like tt haven pass common test alr gain few kgs of weight le -.-
later going for eveing mass, i haven go church yet, den to ah ma hse, celebrating my ah ma's b'day today. 70 plus yrs old i think?? hahas . she's born in the year of chicken. but not e whole big family there, tt usual few didn't come this yr too . hahas . and my fifth uncle's family stuck at Vietnam, my baby cousin fall sick there, hospitalised. but still it's gonna be veri veri noisy, can't really study there i suppose.
oh, saw rainbow ytd evening again !! veri bright orange sky, and a beautiful rainbow. NICE !!! and rare too . hahas . okie, shall not waste time anymore, back to econs =.=
21 March 2009 11:23 PM
i feel e stress coming again . argh!! yah, failed to follow my own time schedule i'm way behind time . hahas ! sam still told me just now, he find there's not alot to study hahas . wth . and my chem, yah, quite dead too. and i haven touch on my math and cse . die !!!
econs really alot of contents which i need to memorise into my small brain . plus ia macro not mirco, even worse . evern more diff, all figures and numbers, O-M-G . gonna kai ye che from tonight onwards. i'll be like some dead corpse aft common test , [ pressured & worried ]
20 March 2009 11:34 PM
went for hornets training just now . coach didn't come AGAIN . hahas . it's going to be like a mth??? we last seen him hahas . he went BALI, zhen hui xiang shou . Mr Neo had his national team stuff can't come also in the end "Jiang Jun" take over, he's one of e hornets men's team player . he's very tall, and LOUD like those ancient General at war, so we give him this nickname Jiang Jun . hahas .
he's damn joker, a bit shui bian and can't speak eng well, trying to speak in eng cos hidaya, dun understand chi tt well. buden okie lah, though as a coach, he's not as good as coach michael, buden he's not bad de, but somehow the way he talks really very lol. buden during training, someone not veri polite and did not show much respect, though he's not our coach, buden he willing to take out time to come down earlier to help takeover, and he did put effort in lah. i dun think she should treat him this way.
it's more than a wk since i last touch bball and run. today's dribbling quite off, though shooting wise still can make it . hahas . and i did learn something out from him . not in term of skill, but mentality?? hahas . i'm quite tensed up cos like no strength to dribble and control e bball well . he noticed and told me this, and somehow awaken me.
" people who play bball long enough won't panic and worry so much, they play with a calm, untense, relax, confident manner and posture. people who panic are those who start playing bball. but u are not one of them right? u played for years alr. trust yourself and the ball."
though just some simple words. but, it's so true. i lost trust . yups, tt's e word "TRUST" i didn't really lose self confidence, but TRUST . i need to have tt trust in myself, e bball, and most importantly in e teamates i playing with . i'll feel safe and confidence if i trust myself and them . and not doubt .
19 March 2009 3:13 PM
all sudden have this thought, 26 days more ....
i myself also not sure wad's e real ans fade away? diverted? divided out? still as strong? let go alr?
i only know i've been forcing myself to study, cos i need to, i have to, for my own sake, for wad i want to be in e future . making studies a "passion"
2:56 PM
studying @ One Fullerton again . hahas . came here alone today . simply attracted by e peace and tranquillity here . somehow i am able to settle down and focus to study here . though is quite boring . cos for e whole holidays, we need to study -.-lllll
jy might be coming over to find me aft her training . hahas. okie, back to books and notes . hahas . JIA YOU !!!
12:09 AM
TIRED !!!! lost focus liao . omg . hahas!! must push myself back on track had bad stomachache today =(
this wk haven went for a run yet . must force myself to . yeah . gd night !! **sleepy**
18 March 2009 12:13 AM
though e release of A's is like a wk back?? but it really scares me somehow?? hahas . maybe nobody will believe tt me will be worried about A's cos i like slacking and keep playing bball
buden i see e impact of e results on ppl around me really quite scares me . though it's just another cert? but this cert have great impact really . i see alot of unhappy faces and is not sad one or two days, sat, i saw one of my senior, is veri obvious she also haven really gotten over it too . a cert tt can cause such a big big big diff . wad if i dun do well enough too?? so many "wad if" appears in my mind my biggest fear for A's, fail GP
17 March 2009 10:40 PM
i'm whole dy outside . hahas . taking a break off from studies . some may feel tt i'm a bit crazy, common test is just aft holidays,but i still can go out to play . but, i feel tt i need a break, and will feel much better and motivated to study . hahas .
went out with my sis to shopping and sight-seeing . i spend less than $30 on two tops?including food too . but initially i wanted to go out cos i wanted to buy sch bag, which i saw tt time when we looking for jy's present, backpack kind, big enough for sch and also competition . did manage to find but is $103, e size and quality of bag worth the money though, but my sis say i won't use it after this yr it might be true too, but if i really got in to NTU den is not . hesitate and had a second thought of it, in the end didn't buy le. another reason is though i like e shape and the size, but e design, i have this feeling tt i might be able to find a one tt i will like it more . ahh, hope i won't regret not buying . hahas
went home for dinner, had a nap just now . break time over!! back to studies =D just saw u online, surprised, but happy =D but less than a mth to e day u going to be botak
16 March 2009 11:58 PM
omg . today veri sinful . hahas . we went to eat popeye den to one fullerton starbucks to study . back to plaza sing and ate @HK cafe for dinner . hahas !! going to go for a run tml morning. i dun wan later stamina drop, my effort will gone to waste . hahas!! tml a break from studies!! going out with my sis . but still will study @ night. okie, bedtime!! just nw just randomly browse through e pics inside my phone, and saw ur baby photos. so cute!! esp e chubby one . all sudden really feel like hugging u. and hug u tight . wonder how u doing now? everyday kept staying at home?? are u purposely offline? feel like asking about ur choices and stuff or go running too buden feel mayb it's better not to ask so much still.
13 March 2009 6:45 PM
now studying @ mac . had my Common test GP paper in e morning. the paper is somehow do-able, but i'm sure, ppl who are gd at GP can score very well for sure . it isn't as difficult as the practices done during tutorials. i'm quite surprised by the essay topics today, no "chim-ology" kind of topics, quite straight forward de. AND there's one on SPORTs . hahas!! caught by surprised. qn: Does sport really able to foster better relation among nations and people? yah, i did on tt . i had so much points to write about tt i think my essay is not very organised, and i didn't have time to write finish wad i really wants to write, but still there's 2-sided argument and a conculsion . i'm a bit afraid tt i went off track. but nvm, should be okie bah . hahas . hopefully i'm able to pass .
school training was cancelled today, j2s dun have enough ppl, and magnus also not free . didn't go for hornets training, i need to study, but will be going for sunday's training . i start to feel the pressure, but at the same time, my interest to study grown . my teachers, eps mr lee is really helping me . using all means to helpme understand things i dun know. i feel tt i shouldn't disappoint him and it's alr march le, no time !!! A's coming . hahas . okie... going back to studies now =DD
FOCUS !!!! hahas!!!!!
12 March 2009 11:17 PM
all sudden very bad mood . argh!! very easily irritated . eps by my sis talk loudly on e phone damn irritated . last time i gt a hell-like scolding from my father early in the morning for switching on the lights cos i can't find my stuff, and cos i on e lights, my sis flare up and i gt scolded saying i'm very selfish and inconsiderate . wth . unresasonable lah !! den now?? wad is she doing when i going have my common test?? distracting me !! wth . plus her A's was alr over tt time i gt scolded . as if 10mins lack of sleep will cost her life when she dun even need to go sch alr . simply cannot understand . having my GP paper tml, there she is talking loudly like nobody business . argh !!!
i miss yi qian de ni. u now like simply find no interest in anything. is very not u. it should not be you.
it's hurtful
11 March 2009 10:28 PM
slept of 3/4 of e assembly . veri dry, and we having this live broadcast on Lt3, cos they can fit e whole j2s inside auditorium
aft tt we had training with only 4 physically abled j2s -.- pathetic . hahas . mag dun really know wad to do also . hahas . ran 7 rounds around e track, den phsical training . muscles quite tight de . hahas . den back to the court, oh, i learnt quite alot today !! today everyone not bad not bad, can see some improvement, though not alot . hahas . but gt one drill really cmi . all of us can't really do it well . hahas!! den he teach us this bunny hop thingy . hahas!! quite fun though . and today mag quite gd mood de still can joke a bit with us, but also suan me as usual -.-llll
went to eat dinner with beryl they all . we found one BIG SECRET!! hahas!! actually if the 6 of us is observant, is quite OBVIOUS de . later gt love/EC fight nia . hahas!! but he's not bad lah ah, veri nice LEGS okie.... back to hmwk!!!
wad mag say to me is actually veri true, i should notkeep sticking to my own perspective/way of looking at things or way i think but to open up. though i didn't say or show anything . i can see and feel e love and care of u guys have for the team. really quite touched me de . makes me really happy . though sometimes, some having some attitude probs, but e care u guys fu chu is veri real and genuine . u all dun backstab or complain about any of us, but just veri willing de "fu chu" on this friendship at first,i this feeling u guys do all these, is to try and bond e team but it's not . but really e friendship and e true care and concern of each and everyone of us . hahas. though this team is not as strong, not as skilled, though 2 yrs of friendship really can't compare to a 6 years of friendship, but i should give this 2 years de friendship equal "chances" too . it may not be as close, as dear, but is a team tt really touches me in a different way. everyone is diff, thus i can't compare u guys with my dunearn teamates, is unfair . but somehow, i'm surprise and happy, cos though u guys dun say much,but action tells a lot . really touched .
10 March 2009 10:46 PM
it's a long long day in sch . hahas. TIRED . end lesson at 6pm today . but i'm quite efficient in sch today . hahas!! and somehow i have more and more interest in CSE le . although i still find IS veri tough, and researching really kills me . but ither than tt, i find it okie, it's not tt bad actually . hahas!! all sudden felt engaged . hahas!!
had PT for PE today . do some runnings, incline pull up, jumps.... den our class has a veri nice chat with mr yaw about finances and also his plans, hy he become e teacher, and his past sch life hahas!! he realy planned his future veri well, everything is planned properly, and he's enjoying his life now with a beautiful wife, though we didn't saw her in real, but from photo, she really pretty . so XIN FU aww !!! hahas !!!
i did plan wad i wan to do for my future too!! but not tt detailed as Mr yaw,and somehow i dun work towards it as much as he does lah . hahas!!
my aim: get into NTU : Sports Sci & management den NIE to become a pe teacher aft i get my degree, teach in pri/sec sch for about 15 yrs? den i wan to change to become a kindergareden teacher, i like to be with those young kids, like their innocent, naive and stress free moments . hopefully i really can reach my target and aim. and i want to TRAVEL !! if i can lah, but it isn' easy though. as u grow older, u hav more responsibilities. back to studies... are u still coming to read my blog tt often? hahas . just now i happen to look at the calender, 14 april reaching soon . i'm afraid i will miss u alot. exams coming, need to focus, aft exam is alr going to be e end of march . can we find one day to go out for one last time before u enter army? like wad u promise? still mean more than a bro .
08 March 2009 9:27 PM
went to church in e morning . den went to our family's fav roast duck rice stall, their roast duck and roast pork meat realli nice . i ate this stall since young till now . hahas !!
den went to chinatown to see sinseh . far right chinatown -.- cos my uncle recomend de . tt sinseh look fierce . hahas . but veri experienced one. he press my ankle and knee, he knew wad's wrong, den feel my pulse,he knew i had gastric problem b4 . hahas!! den he tie me on this bed machine thingy, is like massage chair kind, but more powerful den e massage chair . quite painful actually, cos it really press veri accurately on e points and press quite hard de . but u can't move away from the bed cos u are being tied on it. den here comes e more painful part, ze jiu ..
his ze jie is not those normal ze jiu, but his is using electric pluse kind poke e needles at those points, den use somewires to connect e needles to some machine, when he on it,i near jump lah . hahas!! u really can feel ur gen being "shock", u can feel ur skin moving up and down, at first really quite painful esp he turn on e strength quite high, but aft awhile is okie lah . when is ending, he use this lamp to shine heat on my ankles, this is realli e most torturing part, veri WARM !! ma cham roasting my skin . hahas . it's really quite torturing de den he took away the needles and help me rub, he use damn lot of force -.- if u are first time there, really quite scary de . hahas .
he told my mum to dun(4) tian qi, some tonic thingy, for me saying tt it is good for sportman/woman, it help us to recover fast from our injuries, and help us to GROW TALL!!! hahas!! GROW TALL!! yeah yeah!! hopefully it's true la can grow tall . hahas!! and i need to take medication too .
back to hmwk le, tml still hav sch.. exams coming too...
how are u nw?? feeling better? all sudden e thought tt, mayb u enter army now, u will feel better,more occupied, something challenging out there. [worried]
07 March 2009 3:57 PM
CURRENTLY @ National Library i'm so so damn bored . hahas . although i found and photocopied my resources alr. BUT i dun have e mood to read .hahas . i can't concentrate in e afternoon -.- i wanna go eat but jeanette and theresa dun wan!!! HUNGRY ! hahas . enjoyin this nice scenery @lvl 11 veri gd view of the flyers, one fullerton, suntec, can even see singapore indoor stadium from here. hahas!! i keep looking around, doing nth .
Singapore inddor stadium, where we once walked passed before . ahh.... hahas!! howareunow? betterorstill e same? iftimecouldjustreversebackandstop
2:01 AM
no point comparing, no point pondering, if say dun be sad/pissed/affected is fake, all of us are human beings still, but hopefully, try to get over it, nothing can be change or undone, there's sure be a way,somehow somewhere, although it might not be wad we really wants, but life still goes on .
06 March 2009 11:27 PM
A's result are out today . PJC didn't do veri well this year . i gt my A's chinese result . damn disappointing . is even lower than wad i atleast should get . CHINESE leh, how on earth i did so badly before, always A or B for chinese since primary sch . now D, wth . not going to retake, just wasting time today is a BAD BAD day.
i'm speechless, i dun know wad to say or do, i dun dare to talk, feel veri helpless. veri worried, wad i expect e worst, really happened. really KO den OK. just hope tt u'll feel better as e days pass by, i dun know wad should i say to u,or how to make u feel better, only knowing tt leave u alone might be the best option, letting u cool down first. aimlessly again, hope e appeals success and u gt into wad u wan. e smile is gone again
i saw e love, e care of u all during training today . surprised and touched . although it might be a small gesture, but it makes wonders .
small little gesture like buying 7 to 8 bottles of cold drinks for e team due to e super hot weather . i saw e effort and e right attitude, unselfish action, willing to do e extra mile without any complains, and words of encouragments .
it really touched me and motivate me
05 March 2009 11:26 PM
nice right?!! hahas!! i didn't know my sch field looks tt gd .
su wei took this pic while we having SOCCER for PE lesson.
i just passed my soccer practical test lah . omg!
actualli i kick better den some others who scored higher den me
cos the veri first soccer trial, i didn't know is gauge, so i just anyhow kick,
and one of e component is long d kick, i kick about 25m ! so to get better grade,
i need to kick like 30m or more to pass . how can it be -.- so yah, it drag my
grade down, where others tt only kick 15 to 20 m can beat me in the final score.
-.-llllll hahas!!! BUT !! theory test i score 31/40 !! not bad k! hahas!!
aft sch went to national library with theresa for cse essay .
veri EFFICIENT!! hahas .i found quite a handful of resources
but i'm simply lazy to type them in . tired . i now only hav 200 plus words.
gonna continue 5am in e morning, and do my GP compre too .
too tired to think .
oh!! TML !!! BIG DAY !! A' LVL results coming out TML !!
seniors are all coming back @ about 2pm. lessons end at 12.30pm
hahas!! ppl look out for ur EYE CANDY for e last time.
Gd Luck everyone !! getting my A's MT result tml too.
veri reluctant to get back my A's MT . it's so difficult,
plus MT is a subject i always do well in, i dun think i will do
tt well this time . atleast a C pls !! hais .
okie SLEEP !! TIRED....
04 March 2009 9:10 PM
today's schedule is super rush aft CT lesson end, we had Chem SPA Skill A, after chem SPA, we had sports talk, omg it ended at 5 pm lah, so late!! den rush to e court, we had friendly with some J2s ppl most of us didn't had our lunch, empty and hungry stomach
i played badly . i'm veri not into the game at first . the whole team is playing in a mess . yah, i panic . i see e scoring is so near, started to panic all e way .
i did alot of mistakes, omg . i'm back to square one, i can't control the tempo, i can't control my emotions, i can't relax and think well
oh man .. i learn alot of moves, i know how to do de, but simply i dun know why those stuff didn't come to my mind when i'm playing but aft e game ended . i gt application problem lah really true, when we panic, we can't play well .
i saw how e team play today, A'dvs is like digging our own grave there's isn't much time left lah . hais . how?? everyone not even warm up yet for A'dvs . everyone panic, in total mess . like the first few matches of ISIBL or even worse . e team still veri reliant on that few main players, when those players are out on bench, e contrast quite big de . it shouldn't be the way, wad if those few players injured or no stamina alr? how?? and we need more team chemistry and teamwork and formations really. total mess today, dun know wad should we do when attack . and our fast break, too slow!!! hahas . cmi nia . court vision no gd sia .
i need to gain my confidence level, to trust my team as well as myself, and able to control my emotion and temper and my point of view . need to buck up !!! cannot be scared now . zhen zhuo zhen zhuo!! i need alot of advices and guidance "lost in a maze, trying to find my way out"
03 March 2009 10:45 PM
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JY !! hahas . went meet her, xy and pr for dinner . hahas . okie, i dun have e mood to type . but overall, nice . hahas !! going to bed soon, waking up at 5 to study for CHEM SPA, having chem SPA skill A tml. sian.okie . gd night
i can't wait to see u .
02 March 2009 10:51 PM
AHH stupid chem SPA, skill A really troublesome esp for me, this chem noob, need to memorise so much things hahas!! and we keep on practising writing the whole chem SPA skill A out . i wrote it the 3rd or 4th time le . hahas . veri bored . cos veri long-winded and i squeeze too much things inside my small brain, now nth can goes in -.-
no point copying from notes right?? i still need to go memorise them again. chem SPA on this WED . hahas .
hmwk undone : GP( alot, esssayS outline, AQ etc.), CSE thesis (1000 words) by fri, i wrote ZERO
hahas!!!! and common test coming soon, haven start revising . hais .
8:19 PM
i think my right ankle gt someproblems again -.- when i rotate it, it will like get "stuck" at one of e point, and it hurts quite a bit . but i dun remember injuring it, although i did feel e pain on sat friendly . hais hais hais . should see a sinseh?? hahas!! going have friendly on wed lao le -.-
okie, needa go back to studies . where are u? nvr online? misses .
01 March 2009 11:20 PM
me so so so tired now . hahas just now went to celebrate jy's bday in advance. quite fun though it rains, we bbq outside pr's hse hope she really like it . hahas. not tt disappointing bah . hahas . took quite alot of photos too. hahas.
it's so weird not chatting.even e msges only like a few each time u reply.i know is nth much.just feel odd though.all sudden havine e thought tt u going in army soon soon soon.really gonna miss u so much. though not realli cos of fang bu xia or wad,alr let go le, just plainly she bu de. it's gonna like mths or weeks dun get to msn-ing or msg.i scare aft u comeout,we won't be like how we are now.dun have this pig to fight and joke with me,although is nth much,but those stupid jokes and fights can brighten up my tiring day,feeling better.and u are one of e few tt understand me most.ma cham my lao pa.it's a blessing to know u, imagine u or me didn't come to pjc at first. things might be sososo different from now right? ="(
the memories we shared,
the tears we cried,
the laughter of happiness,
the lasting friendship tt's neither gonna change nor end