it seem a very long time since i last posted. has been busy for this whole week . anyway, IT' S FINALLY HOLIDAY !!! omg . i'm waiting for this day to come . although need to study for the whole holiday . but still it's better than going to sch everyday.
had hornets training today . didn't perform that well. quite disappointed with myself . i somehow like stone-d during training . hais . but atleast i realise something, i can do right hand penetration pretty well . hahas!! going to try my left hand soon . gonna be quite tough . having friendly with the ex-njc players on sun morning. hopefully i perform well . somehow, i'm trying to aim to be in the main 5, but i know it's impossible . hahas . but still i'll try . going to stay over at babarah's hse tml cos we are playing at NOVENA on sun . omg . 8.30 in e morning
it not just anyone, but only the special place, for tt only special one .
23 May 2009 11:24 PM
unknowingly the sunshine isn't shining as brightly, the laughter isn't as cheerful anymore. a child full of burden hidding in a corner .
where's the light? has she shun it off? i didn't even realise the change.
. wants to go back to the good old days .
22 May 2009 9:24 PM
HCI once again won A'dvs champs . hahas e girls match is so exciting. it's like some roller coaster ride CINDY !!! congrats . MVP of the yr . hahas . she played very well today she's so humble when we praise her just now . damn cute . hahas! but overall they played well . hahas .
went out to eat dinner . hahas . all sudden felt so lucky tt i'm a girl .
21 May 2009 11:42 PM
had a long long long day in sch . dismissed at 3.30, 3.30 to 4.30 GP remedial part1, 5.30to6.30 GP remedial part2. stayed for night study. but aft helping theresa with one math qn, left sch for church mass today's Ascension . hahas . TIRED .
not going sch tml. awaiting for tml to come =D
20 May 2009 10:29 PM
wad a day . i'm so tired . hahas . i realise my ct understand me quite alot omg . shocked!! yeah, i need to put in alot a lot of effort but i won't let myself break down? hopefully hopefully i can cope with e stress . hahas
had training at SIM hostel . it's super far and uh lu. it's at ulu pandan . hahas . it's the hostel where e ping pang yuan de show was film . hahas . very tiring. and lots of mosquitoes.
how have u been?
18 May 2009 11:37 PM
i have been very efficient during night study . hahas . i solved the whole "story-telling" qn 5 by myself!! ahahs . surprisingly i did it. hahas . cos my chem really lousy to the max . though i used around 1 hr?? hahas . sense of achievement . hahas! sound stupid -.-lll
con camp coming soon . this yr my sis is serving with me . but still i remainin the intercessory . cos i can't commit for the whole 4 full days . but i feel, i'm not prepared to serve i haven keep promises, haven really been praying much .
slowly i gt used somehow with u not being around, someone i always complain and whine to . hahas . i felt i gt used to it . maybe? i dun know . maybe gt used but not forgotten? but have u forgotten? this yr, esp from mid yr onwards, i'm going to mug for A's somehow, u have ur tiring life, i have my tedious studying schedule. not wanting to interupt each other's life . browsing back, i miss the gd old days . miss you .
17 May 2009 11:09 PM
i need to go consultantation tml . but!! i didn't revise . i dun know wad problems i have . hahas!! die!! how?? i need to find back my motivation to study . hais .
dun know whether u still have the time to read my blog. but somehow, u seem to be irreplacable . miss the gd old days . hahas . sound weird though. u have ur life in there and family, and i have mine out here . not wanting to disrupt . cos is tough for u, i believe . tough and tiring . hope to see u soon .
16 May 2009 12:28 AM
super duper sleepy. hahas. ZzzZZz had a long long day in sch . but it's finally FRIDAY !! =D
hahas .had training just now. we FULL ATTENDANCE today! first time hornets training we gt full attendance . hahas . BUT, coach wasn't here . he was caught up with some stuff . so Jiang Jun take over . hahas . he and his lousy english . hahas . we run our plays . played 5-0n-5 . not bad though . by right we have around 5 centers . thus by left, some becomes power forward. can see tt we are quite a balanced team i suppose . hahas . we varies in sizes and height . hahas .
fan tao hua?? hahas . if i nvr guess wrongly . hahas . but somehow it's impossible . though race shouldn't be a factor, but it seem weird . i get it, just tt i act as though i dun . need some time i suppose.
11 May 2009 5:26 PM
white lies . it's just "white" lies/promises .
lessons startin tml . boring -.- i haven done any hmwk yet . sick . IS again . hais .
10 May 2009 11:48 PM
dun know why i'm so affected . why u? i thought it's okie alr? so affected . tt make my days so bad. kept on pondering
life isn't been easy for me esp now, this yr . it's not gonna be u again . i suppose . need to lead my own life . it hurts . sometimes i feel, being taken for granted .
i realise, i've been straying away from God. i know, but i do nothing. walking deeper and deerper into the dark . whole world is just about u, and forgotten about Him . i know, at first is just relient, and u will be okie, after a while. but cos of that "at first" which made me fallen back .
went for session today . and it's intercessory . God showed the love again. He made me believe again. nobody knows how trapped and unhappy i was for the passed days . how terrible i felt . during the intercessory, some of them confirmed it. God spoke through a few them to me. not to hide, not to feel unworthy, reach out and he will guide me out. He touched me. i saw the vision too, i saw him holding my hands guiding me on a path, a empty, light-shining path, slowly walking out . and not to doubt. very comforting .
it do takes time for e wounds to heal. it's not gonna be easy i know. but i believe i can, cos i need to . hopefully before con camp. i dun wan to serve with a burden heart.
lighting the path, guiding me out of darkness, back to His side once more
09 May 2009 12:29 AM
wish tt u really fall asleep . going 7-11 now.
08 May 2009 11:59 PM
stayin over at PR's hse today . hahas . she's 18 !! yups, join our sweet 18 gp . went for outside training, perform badly during training. gt scolded quite a lot of time . didn't perfom tt badly for very long time.
are u back?? i saw ur facebook post. are u avoiding me again. am i overly sensitive. hate u being this way. anything happened? affected. wad's now?
12:18 AM
sleepy . ZzzzZ . hahas . it's gonna be weekend soon!! yeah ! going to watch hci vs rjc tml =D sleeping time!!
06 May 2009 12:16 AM
showing signs of depression . breakdown . feeling real stress up . i need a break NOW . but it's unrealistic . unless there's a swine flu breakout in s'pore. how i wish . waiting for e black alert .
dying out here . tears of depression??
04 May 2009 11:22 PM
tired . hais . feeling empty still . tml's a super long day -.-lllll i haven complete my I.S . OMG OMG !! i doubt the whole class complete theirs too . hahas!! i did try to do, there's some progress though . i tried, still trying to change my hair parting, is real irritating. i should be doing my chem tutorial actually . i will do, later??
mid-yr timetable is here, it's not bad though, only one day, sub clash cse paper1 and chem paper 3 so still it's quite okie . planned out my study timetable. it's gonna be tough . needa bear through this obstacle to get nearer to my A'lvl. not sure if i will be able to reach there . dying out here .
thanks to the swine flu, we need to take temperature twice a day . real troublesome . and still need to record down . hahas . though is bad to think this way, but somehow really hope, there's the unlucky person who gt the flu but dun die lah, so tt we dun need go to sch!! but somehow dun think this will happen we alr in orange alert when we dun even have a single suspect case.
miss,missed,missing .
03 May 2009 10:39 PM
it's just weird without u. envy of others.
i'm bored. feeling empty . really dislike doing IS hate it . seriously hate it . it seem like an enlogated essay writing. it seem to have so much to be written. so much things to do research on and mr cham just keep blah-ing, saying wah, this die die cannot like tt, must follow like this and stuff . real irritating . somehow cannot stand it i hate doing stuff i dun like to do. i'm so FORCED to do it . and i'm losing direction simply no interest at all . FORCED to do . why i take up this stupid subject? argh!!! wadever happen to china, seriously i dun find tt it gt to do with me.
i'm not happy. i feel so bothered . everyday IS IS, still IS. how am i going to crawl throught this stupid year . ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! it suck seriously .
9:41 PM
today is St.Joseph's Feast Day, yea, funfair , food and games . hahas . everything were about the same every year. but i'm surprised today! hahas . i saw mag coming to church with his mum . hahas . most prob his mum ask him to come to help her spend those coupons away . hahas .
my family wanted to go for the 6.30 AM teochew mass, saying tt it's rare to have teochew mass -.-lll so early! so didn't went to chuch with them took bus there to attend 9.30am mass... and on the bus! mag and his mum board on, initially i dun know tt's his mum,i was wondering early in the morning where is he going on a 67 bus . hahas!! he stand back facing and BESIDE me, buden hahas!! he nvr notice tt i'm just behind him -.- alighted den i went to say hi, he gt a shocked. hahas!! very gd boy willing to go church early in e morning and attended a chinese mass, i attended chi too, though dun really understand much very chim chi usage of words . hahas !!
went to meet theresa to study at 1 and she duper late -.-lll hahas . damn tired . still have to do IS . torturing . family went IM to shop, i'm pathetically stuck at home
wondering hw's ur jungle life? tiring huh? hopefully this week pass by quickly. takecare .
02 May 2009 12:08 AM
went shopping and watch movie today. initially is not de,but yah, i understand, it's tiring . didn't spent alot today, $19 on watch, $19 on a dress, those simple dress, easy to match and go out type. others on food . hahas . it since a very long time tt i went shopping . those saw some i like, but must control . hahas!!
must control my diet sia . if not sure gain weight de . hahas going to run tml, hopefully?? hahas . must lose weight !! hehes . very tired -.- going to bed soon .