02 October 2009 12:35 AM
Feels : bored
i'm still doing cse essay at this hour **sian** hahas . no choice, had to hand up tml . hahas.
is so boring, keep writing facts after facts . yucks . hais . prelim results not getting better, not worsening also . all U and S as predicted . not very demoralise, but i know i can do better .
tu ran jian, ni hao xiang bu jian le . ni jiu xiang feng yi yang, shui yi er lai, shui yi er qu .
sometimes,
feel tt "ni bu yao li wo hao mah?",
but, other times,
feel like "where are u? i need you . hais"
when hu si luan xiang, pms,
"are u trying to hong wo er yi? can u treat me better?"
how important are u actually to me? or u are not at all? how important am i to u actually?
ni dui wo de hao, shi wo zhen de xiang yao de "hao" mah? how much do u really understand me? u seem to understand me very well, but somehow it don't seem to be the case. ni cai de bah?
what if i lie to u, i did things that i promise/said i will not do,
will u forgive me?
ppl might feel tt i have changed, being "badly" influenced by them. but i dun feel tt way. wad's so bad about it? because, i know wad am i doing and i know how to takecare of myself . it's not everyone who does tt is bad . many ppl have a misconception of it i think . doing tt doesn't mean i have changed in terms of character or principles, i am still who i am .
ppl say ying man is worst than doing wrong . but telling the truth will hurt/destroy rls.
shou le hui sheng qi, bu shou, is worst than zhuo cuo shi . it's so confusing .