03 April 2009 11:27 PM
we won our friendly with ijc today .
initially i thought it will be a tough match,
cos ijc lost toyjc by 10 over points,
which is not bad . but somehow, they aren't at their
best i suppose . dun seem to be like how their standard
should be . didn't realy played very wellor bad though.
is like neither here nor there, i believe i can do better
or the team can do better?? but i dun know why,
when i won this match,i dun feel tt success or the happiness
i felt last time when i won those matches. i just dun seem to have
any feelings about it . neutral . is it a gd thing??
or i got used to losing till i forget how it is to win??
dun think so bah . i dun know .
u just torn it into pieces. speechless
i know surely there's a reason behind it,
u refuse to say anything at all.
i just wanna know WHY?
u just broke all the promises.
did it on purpose. dun believe u are so hard hearted
really dun believe . wad about the things u said last time?
just said it due to tt moment of feel and thoughts?
just said for the sake of saying?
get colder and colder each time .
u chose to, not tt u are .
always has been my pillar through e times of difficulties
esp leading this team . seem like i just lost this pillar, though
i had learnt how to not reply on it. but i not wan nen de,
u understand me the most, u know this team well,
being the one tt is most helpful for me . it seem tt
really standing out there alone .
is nt the jl i used to know? now u dun even seem to treat me like ur sis. like ignoring, no is like avoid to the max. not even like a bro anymore? i dun put any hope anymore. but why can't u just do it the last time, one last time? just to really see u and talk to u for tt last time. i believe u won't even talk to me aft u enter army . the 2 yr thingy will become some sort of bullshit, non existence. wadever u said, or promise will become bu chun zai alr. i know, i knew it.