08 April 2009 10:20 PM
had our friendly with MI today
DISAPPOINTING !!! very very disappointing.
it's not wad we should be playing . i think
everyone has that little "fear" devil inside their mind
we like playing with some bomb ball . and i'm very reckless
is VERY not a little . i didn't lose my temper, but i lose control
of my thoughts, calm, and mentalilty. i just freak out on court.
untill the last quarter, i calm down abit, doing something tt's
right. but injured my right ankle again . it's not very serious,
i think it's just some minor injury, need to recover fast .
i very disappointed with my performance. i hai le them somehow,
due to my reckless actions and decisions, i caused alot of turnovers,
and lost alot of opportunities. i made alot of big boo boos on court.
too much . i freak out again. i took nearly 30 mins to calm myself down.
i'm really sorry ppl . failed to play well, failed to lead well. one of e most
regretful match ever. lose confidence somehow, i can't do wad i could last time,
driving in and shooting isn't tt perfect abd well done like last time .
alot of "wad if" inside my mind. i know wad i want to perform,
but simply failed to do it . faith, trust, passion, yearn/desires and confidence pls !!!!
i needa perservere and fight back, fight for every ball, go for every ball
the "wants" for it where has it gone to?? buried under worries and pressure??
played badly .... forgt how bball should be played?? u can't give up !!!!!!