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being veri lethargic today in sch .
keep wanting to fall asleep . ZzzZz.
hahas!! finally ended sch @ 4 aft pe.

stayed back to watch PJC Rugby vs CJC
it's their first match of e A'dvs tournament .
@ our homeground . many stayed back to
watch and support them . hahas .
though dun understand much about rugby,
only know if the ball cross the line or the goal post
mean score points . hahas !!! and our rugby guys did well!!
they won their first match, 0 - 30plus . not bad !!!
hahas . rugby really very violent . but it's really about
stamina, strength, and speed and most impt teamwork .
really see their fighting spirit and team spirit .
and they really gd, see the way they pass e rugby ball
to their teammates fast and accurate. helping each other
out of e tangles . hahas . and the ref, very cute, he dun look fit at all
like some ah peh with a big tummy, but can run about in the whole
big field together with e guys . hahas ! it's a gd start for them.
all the best !! hahas

my papa very ramdom, he promised my family and mum
this yr, their 21st wedding anniversary, we will go to the studio
to take quan jia fu!! hahas !! omg !! didn't expect my dad to say tt
yeah yeah !! can't wait for it . hahas . but mum dun believe tt dad will
keep his promise, saying tt he sure forget de . hahas .
but i and my sis will remind him for sure =D

tt's wad which holds my passion, my dreams, my memories
pls dun spoil it, dun damage it, respect it .

it's my last time playing A'dvs, it meant alot alot alot to me
i want to end it beautifully, without any cracks,
but satisfaction and how it should be played.

having a very bad headache now . maybe really falling ill
dun feellike going sch tml. but hezel is going tohave his first
A'dvs rugby match tml. really feel like watching,
though i dun understand how rugby is played neither e rules
hahas . buden no matter wad, all the best !! hahas

cambridge revert back our CSE IS proposal.
mine gt approved with no comments. hahas .
quite happy though . but there's a few ppl
in our class gt rejected, but not a very major problems
just need some refining and scoping??

had pe in the morning and training in e late afternoon
i thought magnus is going to wack us hard today,
but he's nice and understanding, we dun need to run track
today. rather 5 rounds e 3 bball courts . den as usual,
lay up drills. as training goes on, e j2s attitude getting
from bad to worse . i'm trying to bear with it. trying not to throw
my temper out . i kept quite quiet . but is really horrendous
it time round, u guys really stepped across my line, way across
22nd april is our first match, we dun have so much time to fool
around like how we did last time . wake up ppl. wake up ur idea
dun waste mag's time or e teachers' effort. i know at the end of training,
my tone is very harsh on u all. i nvr, NVR had to raise tt tone before.
really too much . magnus might say it in a better manner to u ppl
i dun hav tt paitence and temper.

u guys bear in mind pls, not becos u are j2 or u have tt skill to,
magnus will choose u all in the 12, attitude counts . the 12 jerseys
meant for players tt earn for it, and get serious with it. utterly disappointed.
seriously, dun wan history to repeat itself again, not e scorings
but the disappointment, and tt feeling as a failure team

no point saying sorry, do wad u can do, and do it right,
make sure u feel no regrets and bad for it.
value the chances given to u, it's something wad others might
not get to have even they desired much more than u do .

bear in mind, a team make up of 12 players,
1 down, others will be affected, one mistake u make,
affect e whole team, every single of the 12 counts,
make sure u are suitable, and u value it, play it well.
we are e one controlling our own fate and e team's fate
not coach, not the teachers.

very bothered all sudden. dun know why. should i or should i not?


our class outing @ marina barrage


stupid ziyang spoil our pic -.-


still have GP hmwk . so sucky, CT just over
there's hmwk . hais . buden no choice still must do

there's training tml . hahas . tired .





[i know u're not the one]

08S32 Class Outing
@ MARINA BARRAGE

one word- TIRED !
today's training like omg, lots of running
and i feel tt my physical lvl drop!!
ya, drop drastically compared to e lvl i am during dec
gt no stregth to shoot aft running . BAD .

went to watch guys' match again . actually wanted to talk about it
but simply too tired . i can just lie anywhere in e hse and doze off
still need to design e bball tee . buden TIRED can't think . ZZzzzz

i cut my hiar . it'snot e way i wan it turn out to be!!
dun feel like going out of e hse =(

putting mask now . hahas !!
surprisingly i'll put mask, buden which girls
dun want to look presentable?? hahas . due to
consecutive sleepless nights, i look haggard .
e whole face like sunk down.

and today is my last day of COMMON TEST !!
i think i'm quite "FINISHED" too . hahas .
as i didn't sleep for even 4 hrs ytd night, during the
chem paper today, my brain like dead, overused,
i can't think, or recall much, even e formulas .
hahas. for mcq, is really just anyhow fill in the blanks.
atleast for paper 2 section A, i still know how to do,
but section B totally gone case . hahas . buden
since i entered jc, i didn't pass chem once . hahas.
had cse paper in the afternoon, if nothings go wrong
should be atleast a S?? somehow i wrote craps in my case study
hahas . i just hope i pass my econs, math and cse so tt i dun need to
see e principal or HOD again . plus A'dvs coming, can't afford to
miss trainings due to studies . or worst, cannot play .

went to town with candice, sam,gab and dong ma.
went to eat dinner at soup spoon @ paragon, den went window shopping
hahas . i saw another backpack, is cheaper, $70?
yah, black colour, and is quite big . and yesh! i decided to buy tt instead
of e one i saw at far east which is $103. hahas . gonna buy it on Sunday.
i need a backpack for sch, trainings and also competition.

gonna CUT HAIR tml !! hahas . hopefully it will turn out fine
really scare latr hair disaster . hahas . going to SBC to watch e guys'
match too, Vs VJC. den back to school for training . hahas .
it's their crucial match. if they win tml,
most prob they will get into 2nd round, all e best !!! JIAYOU .

i studied for about going to 3 hours alr .
not bad not bad . going to continue to study till 1am?
but need to wake up at latest 6.30 am to continue too
luckily tml math paper is in e afternoon, have e morning to study
i haven complete studing for math actually. i think i spent the
least time on CSE and math . econs and chem omg -.-
hahas!! had my econs paper today, i'm quite surprised by
e standard of e paper, cos i thought it will be very difficult,
somehow i can do both case study and essay, but i did not have
enough time to complete my essay, 9 marks fly away liao .
a bit sian diao, cos i know e ans just tt not enough time
but still not much confidence in attaining an E though.

decided, i not going to wait till aft A'dvs den cut hair
cannot stand it. hahas . but i not going to cut short,
only cut short e fringe and shorten e back by 3 cm??
so tt i still can tie my hair during e competition .
but e length like not long, but also not very short either,
like neither here nor there =.= buden no choice,
dun wan to play a'dvs with hair flying and sticking on
my face . hahas !! havin headache again...
hopefully i dun fall sick. hahas .
go burn oil le . JIAYOU !!

just took a 2 hour nap. hahas .
going to start studing aft i post this .
it's gonna be the start of the tiring 3 days
"battle" of common test !!! means, it's gonna
be nightmares and lack of sleep days for me
till my last paper on thursday . and i had two H2
papers on thursday!! CSE and Chem . omg =.=

just now went to watch pjc guys' a'dvs match .
vs IJC . hahas. at first i thought pjc will win .
but they didn't . it seem everyone was quite anxious
and off form for the first 2 quarters . their play is quite in
a mess and def also keep having loopholes, thus e ijc's no.10
had chances to shoot in more than 5 3-pointers if i'm not wrong.
yah no.10 veri zhun . and ijc gt this angmoh guy, though angmoh,
actually i find him not really a very big threat inside, but somehow
ijc use him and the shooter to divert e def's attention .

but pjc gt back their tempo and fought back . actually losing about 16 pts?
den catch up, losing 8 points . but the points keep varying, we outsider see
alr also gan jiong . they made alot of deadly and stupid mistakes too .
but last quarter, they really fought damn hard, had quite a few success
full court man man def, and gt a few possesions too . but somehow or rather,
e rim dun like them lah, quite a no. of balls just bounce out or wash out of e rim
when it seem tt is going in le . and the ref, like cross eyes or something . hahas .
he's not bias, but his vision just gt some problem seriously . pjc lost by 7pts
can see the disappointment on their face. if their first 2 quarters, they play as
gd as 3rd and 4th quarters, i might had just won alr . although they didn't play very well,
but i'm quite impressed by their full court man def, and also their undying spirit .
non of them gave up hope, even when they lost more than half of wad their opp scored,
they still fight on . and e teachers and players keep cheering them on,mr kevin ang came
to support them too . hahas . and they aren't tt bad too, huihan improved, he's getting stronger.
and some others too .

when i watch e match, i and alicia gt e same feeling . all sudden felt scared and pressured.
we saw e guys doing alot of stupid mistakes, stupid passes and decisions. we scared we
will do e same stupid mistakes too . and i'm so sttempted to play A'dvs, e feel of playing on
tt court, scoring, defending ur opp. e sound of e whistles, e cheers and applause .
buden somehow, i shouldn't think so much . believe in myself, wad's e most impt now
is not how gd or skillfull, but i think how calm and relax can i be during e game .
i need to be calm and have a clear mind. tt's e best way i'll be able to help e team
and do well as a player and captain . JIAYOU !! hahas .
okie, back to my notes

omg . now really not much motivation left.
all sudden econs seem so dead to me .
i rather study for chem den econs .
but i can't, econs paper first . argh .
really lots to study . simply losing interest.
hahas . kai ye che tonight again . ytd's ye che
somehow or rather seem to broke down half way
hahas!! buden today can't afford to . no time -.-ll

oh, in e morning went to see sin seh, e gombak de
i dun wan go see some weird sinseh alr. back to this
old one . hahas!! he helped to to rub and pull e gen.
a bit kong bu ah .cos when he rub, u can feel e gen
or e bone like rubbing against each other, gt tt "crak crak"
sound . hahas!! but i feel much better aft tt though .
e sin seh say, i did not really hurt my ankle,
but is e whole gen from spinal cord tt area downwards
although not very serious, but still must avoid too
vigorous exercises. hahas!! i was think, how to?? i play bball
and i need to do a very thorough warm up exercise,
in sequence, from waist, den e thighs, calf, butt and den ankle
first time i was asked to do warm up in sequence . i need to tape
my ankle whenever i play.

okie, back to econs -.-lllllll

ahhh.... having headache when i see my econs notes
hahas!!! i'm still left with 3 sets of notes not touched yet .
really can't stay at home to study, i can't sit still on e chair for
atleast 1.5 hrs . hahas . keep go kitchen find things to eat and drink
like tt haven pass common test alr gain few kgs of weight le -.-

later going for eveing mass, i haven go church yet, den
to ah ma hse, celebrating my ah ma's b'day today.
70 plus yrs old i think?? hahas . she's born in the year of chicken.
but not e whole big family there, tt usual few didn't come this yr too .
hahas . and my fifth uncle's family stuck at Vietnam,
my baby cousin fall sick there, hospitalised. but still it's gonna be
veri veri noisy, can't really study there i suppose.

oh, saw rainbow ytd evening again !! veri bright orange sky, and a beautiful rainbow.
NICE !!! and rare too . hahas . okie, shall not waste time anymore, back to
econs =.=

i feel e stress coming again . argh!!
yah, failed to follow my own time schedule
i'm way behind time . hahas !
sam still told me just now, he find there's not alot to study
hahas . wth . and my chem, yah, quite dead too.
and i haven touch on my math and cse . die !!!

econs really alot of contents which i need to memorise
into my small brain . plus ia macro not mirco,
even worse . evern more diff, all figures and numbers,
O-M-G . gonna kai ye che from tonight onwards.
i'll be like some dead corpse aft common test ,
[ pressured & worried ]

went for hornets training just now .
coach didn't come AGAIN . hahas .
it's going to be like a mth??? we last seen him
hahas . he went BALI, zhen hui xiang shou .
Mr Neo had his national team stuff can't come also
in the end "Jiang Jun" take over, he's one of e hornets
men's team player . he's very tall, and LOUD like those ancient
General at war, so we give him this nickname Jiang Jun . hahas .

he's damn joker, a bit shui bian and can't speak eng well,
trying to speak in eng cos hidaya, dun understand chi tt well.
buden okie lah, though as a coach, he's not as good as coach michael,
buden he's not bad de, but somehow the way he talks really very lol.
buden during training, someone not veri polite and did not show much respect,
though he's not our coach, buden he willing to take out time to come down earlier
to help takeover, and he did put effort in lah. i dun think she should treat him this way.

it's more than a wk since i last touch bball and run. today's dribbling quite off,
though shooting wise still can make it . hahas . and i did learn something out from him .
not in term of skill, but mentality?? hahas . i'm quite tensed up cos like no strength to
dribble and control e bball well . he noticed and told me this, and somehow awaken me.

" people who play bball long enough won't panic and worry so much,
they play with a calm, untense, relax, confident manner and posture.
people who panic are those who start playing bball.
but u are not one of them right? u played for years alr.
trust yourself and the ball."

though just some simple words. but, it's so true. i lost trust . yups, tt's e word "TRUST"
i didn't really lose self confidence, but TRUST . i need to have tt trust in myself, e bball,
and most importantly in e teamates i playing with . i'll feel safe and confidence if i trust
myself and them . and not doubt .

all sudden have this thought,
26 days more ....

i myself also not sure wad's e real ans
fade away? diverted? divided out? still as strong? let go alr?

i only know i've been forcing myself to study,
cos i need to, i have to, for my own sake,
for wad i want to be in e future .
making studies a "passion"

studying @ One Fullerton again . hahas .
came here alone today . simply attracted by e
peace and tranquillity here . somehow i am able to
settle down and focus to study here .
though is quite boring . cos for e whole holidays,
we need to study -.-lllll

jy might be coming over to find me aft her training . hahas.
okie, back to books and notes . hahas .
JIA YOU !!!

TIRED !!!!
lost focus liao . omg .
hahas!! must push myself back on track
had bad stomachache today =(

this wk haven went for a run yet .
must force myself to . yeah .
gd night !! **sleepy**

though e release of A's is like a wk back??
but it really scares me somehow?? hahas .
maybe nobody will believe tt me will be worried
about A's cos i like slacking and keep playing bball

buden i see e impact of e results on ppl around me
really quite scares me . though it's just another cert?
but this cert have great impact really . i see alot of unhappy faces
and is not sad one or two days, sat, i saw one of my senior,
is veri obvious she also haven really gotten over it too .
a cert tt can cause such a big big big diff .
wad if i dun do well enough too?? so many "wad if" appears in my mind
my biggest fear for A's, fail GP

i'm whole dy outside . hahas .
taking a break off from studies .
some may feel tt i'm a bit crazy, common test
is just aft holidays,but i still can go out to play .
but, i feel tt i need a break, and will feel much better
and motivated to study . hahas .

went out with my sis to shopping and sight-seeing .
i spend less than $30 on two tops?including food too .
but initially i wanted to go out cos i wanted to buy sch bag,
which i saw tt time when we looking for jy's present,
backpack kind, big enough for sch and also competition .
did manage to find but is $103, e size and quality of bag
worth the money though, but my sis say i won't use it after this yr
it might be true too, but if i really got in to NTU den is not .
hesitate and had a second thought of it, in the end didn't buy le.
another reason is though i like e shape and the size, but e design,
i have this feeling tt i might be able to find a one tt i will like it more .
ahh, hope i won't regret not buying . hahas

went home for dinner, had a nap just now .
break time over!! back to studies =D
just saw u online, surprised, but happy =D but less than a mth to e day u going to be botak

omg . today veri sinful . hahas .
we went to eat popeye den to one fullerton starbucks
to study . back to plaza sing and ate @HK cafe
for dinner . hahas !! going to go for a run tml morning.
i dun wan later stamina drop, my effort will gone to waste . hahas!!
tml a break from studies!! going out with my sis .
but still will study @ night. okie, bedtime!!
just nw just randomly browse through e pics inside my phone, and saw ur baby photos. so cute!! esp e chubby one . all sudden really feel like hugging u. and hug u tight . wonder how u doing now? everyday kept staying at home?? are u purposely offline? feel like asking about ur choices and stuff or go running too buden feel mayb it's better not to ask so much still.

now studying @ mac .
had my Common test GP paper in e morning.
the paper is somehow do-able, but i'm sure,
ppl who are gd at GP can score very well for sure .
it isn't as difficult as the practices done during tutorials.
i'm quite surprised by the essay topics today,
no "chim-ology" kind of topics, quite straight forward de.
AND there's one on SPORTs . hahas!! caught by surprised.
qn: Does sport really able to foster better relation among nations and people?
yah, i did on tt . i had so much points to write about tt i think my essay is not very organised,
and i didn't have time to write finish wad i really wants to write, but still
there's 2-sided argument and a conculsion . i'm a bit afraid tt i went off track.
but nvm, should be okie bah . hahas . hopefully i'm able to pass .

school training was cancelled today,
j2s dun have enough ppl, and magnus also not free .
didn't go for hornets training, i need to study,
but will be going for sunday's training . i start to feel the pressure,
but at the same time, my interest to study grown . my teachers, eps mr lee
is really helping me . using all means to helpme understand things i dun know.
i feel tt i shouldn't disappoint him and it's alr march le, no time !!!
A's coming . hahas . okie... going back to studies now =DD

FOCUS !!!! hahas!!!!!

all sudden very bad mood . argh!!
very easily irritated . eps by my sis talk loudly on e phone
damn irritated . last time i gt a hell-like scolding from my
father early in the morning for switching on the lights cos i can't find my stuff,
and cos i on e lights, my sis flare up and i gt scolded saying i'm very selfish and
inconsiderate . wth . unresasonable lah !! den now?? wad is she doing when i going
have my common test?? distracting me !! wth . plus her A's was alr over tt time i
gt scolded . as if 10mins lack of sleep will cost her life when she dun even need to go sch alr .
simply cannot understand . having my GP paper tml, there she is talking loudly like
nobody business . argh !!!

i miss yi qian de ni.
u now like simply find no interest in anything.
is very not u. it should not be you.

it's hurtful

slept of 3/4 of e assembly .
veri dry, and we having this live broadcast on Lt3,
cos they can fit e whole j2s inside auditorium

aft tt we had training with only 4 physically abled j2s
-.- pathetic . hahas . mag dun really know wad to do also .
hahas . ran 7 rounds around e track, den phsical training .
muscles quite tight de . hahas . den back to the court,
oh, i learnt quite alot today !! today everyone not bad not bad,
can see some improvement, though not alot . hahas . but gt one drill
really cmi . all of us can't really do it well . hahas!! den he teach us this
bunny hop thingy . hahas!! quite fun though . and today mag quite gd mood de
still can joke a bit with us, but also suan me as usual -.-llll

went to eat dinner with beryl they all . we found one BIG SECRET!!
hahas!! actually if the 6 of us is observant, is quite OBVIOUS de .
later gt love/EC fight nia . hahas!! but he's not bad lah ah, veri nice LEGS
okie.... back to hmwk!!!

wad mag say to me is actually veri true,
i should notkeep sticking to my own perspective/way
of looking at things or way i think but to open up.
though i didn't say or show anything .
i can see and feel e love and care of u guys have for the team.
really quite touched me de . makes me really happy .
though sometimes, some having some attitude probs,
but e care u guys fu chu is veri real and genuine .
u all dun backstab or complain about any of us,
but just veri willing de "fu chu" on this friendship
at first,i this feeling u guys do all these, is to try and bond e team
but it's not . but really e friendship and e true care and concern of
each and everyone of us . hahas. though this team is not as strong,
not as skilled, though 2 yrs of friendship really can't compare to a
6 years of friendship, but i should give this 2 years de friendship
equal "chances" too . it may not be as close, as dear,
but is a team tt really touches me in a different way.
everyone is diff, thus i can't compare u guys with my dunearn teamates,
is unfair . but somehow, i'm surprise and happy, cos though u guys dun
say much,but action tells a lot . really touched .

it's a long long day in sch . hahas.
TIRED . end lesson at 6pm today .
but i'm quite efficient in sch today .
hahas!! and somehow i have more and more interest
in CSE le . although i still find IS veri tough, and
researching really kills me . but ither than tt,
i find it okie, it's not tt bad actually . hahas!!
all sudden felt engaged . hahas!!

had PT for PE today . do some runnings,
incline pull up, jumps.... den our class has a veri
nice chat with mr yaw about finances and also his
plans, hy he become e teacher, and his past sch life
hahas!! he realy planned his future veri well,
everything is planned properly, and he's enjoying his life now
with a beautiful wife, though we didn't saw her in real, but from
photo, she really pretty . so XIN FU aww !!! hahas !!!

i did plan wad i wan to do for my future too!!
but not tt detailed as Mr yaw,and somehow i dun work towards
it as much as he does lah . hahas!!

my aim: get into NTU : Sports Sci & management
den NIE to become a pe teacher aft i get my degree,
teach in pri/sec sch for about 15 yrs? den i wan to change
to become a kindergareden teacher, i like to be with those young
kids, like their innocent, naive and stress free moments .
hopefully i really can reach my target and aim. and i want to TRAVEL !!
if i can lah, but it isn' easy though. as u grow older, u hav more responsibilities.
back to studies...
are u still coming to read my blog tt often? hahas . just now i happen to look at the calender, 14 april reaching soon . i'm afraid i will miss u alot. exams coming, need to focus, aft exam is alr going to be e end of march . can we find one day to go out for one last time before u enter army? like wad u promise? still mean more than a bro .

went to church in e morning .
den went to our family's fav roast duck rice stall,
their roast duck and roast pork meat realli nice .
i ate this stall since young till now . hahas !!

den went to chinatown to see sinseh .
far right chinatown -.-
cos my uncle recomend de .
tt sinseh look fierce . hahas . but veri experienced one.
he press my ankle and knee, he knew wad's wrong,
den feel my pulse,he knew i had gastric problem b4 .
hahas!! den he tie me on this bed machine thingy,
is like massage chair kind, but more powerful den
e massage chair . quite painful actually, cos it really
press veri accurately on e points and press quite hard de .
but u can't move away from the bed cos u are being tied on it.
den here comes e more painful part, ze jiu ..

his ze jie is not those normal ze jiu, but his is using electric pluse kind
poke e needles at those points, den use somewires to connect e needles
to some machine, when he on it,i near jump lah . hahas!! u really can feel
ur gen being "shock", u can feel ur skin moving up and down,
at first really quite painful esp he turn on e strength quite high,
but aft awhile is okie lah . when is ending, he use this lamp to shine
heat on my ankles, this is realli e most torturing part,
veri WARM !! ma cham roasting my skin . hahas . it's really quite torturing de
den he took away the needles and help me rub, he use damn lot of force -.-
if u are first time there, really quite scary de . hahas .

he told my mum to dun(4) tian qi, some tonic thingy, for me
saying tt it is good for sportman/woman, it help us to recover fast from
our injuries, and help us to GROW TALL!!! hahas!! GROW TALL!! yeah yeah!!
hopefully it's true la can grow tall . hahas!! and i need to take medication too .

back to hmwk le, tml still hav sch.. exams coming too...

how are u nw?? feeling better?
all sudden e thought tt, mayb u enter army now,
u will feel better,more occupied, something challenging out there.
[worried]

CURRENTLY @ National Library
i'm so so damn bored . hahas .
although i found and photocopied my resources alr.
BUT i dun have e mood to read .hahas .
i can't concentrate in e afternoon -.-
i wanna go eat but jeanette and theresa dun wan!!!
HUNGRY ! hahas . enjoyin this nice scenery @lvl 11
veri gd view of the flyers, one fullerton, suntec,
can even see singapore indoor stadium from here.
hahas!! i keep looking around, doing nth .

Singapore inddor stadium, where we once walked
passed before . ahh.... hahas!!
howareunow? betterorstill e same? iftimecouldjustreversebackandstop

no point comparing, no point pondering,
if say dun be sad/pissed/affected is fake,
all of us are human beings still,
but hopefully, try to get over it,
nothing can be change or undone,
there's sure be a way,somehow somewhere,
although it might not be wad we really wants,
but life still goes on .

A's result are out today .
PJC didn't do veri well this year .
i gt my A's chinese result .
damn disappointing . is even lower than
wad i atleast should get . CHINESE leh,
how on earth i did so badly before,
always A or B for chinese since primary sch .
now D, wth . not going to retake, just wasting time
today is a BAD BAD day.

i'm speechless, i dun know wad to say or do,
i dun dare to talk, feel veri helpless.
veri worried, wad i expect e worst,
really happened. really KO den OK.
just hope tt u'll feel better as e days pass by, i dun know wad should i say to u,or how to make u feel better, only knowing tt leave u alone might be the best option, letting u cool down first. aimlessly again, hope e appeals success and u gt into wad u wan. e smile is gone again

i saw e love, e care of u all during training today .
surprised and touched . although it might be a small gesture,
but it makes wonders .

small little gesture like buying 7 to 8 bottles
of cold drinks for e team due to e super hot weather .
i saw e effort and e right attitude, unselfish action,
willing to do e extra mile without any complains,
and words of encouragments .

it really touched me and motivate me

today's schedule is super rush
aft CT lesson end, we had Chem SPA Skill A,
after chem SPA, we had sports talk, omg
it ended at 5 pm lah, so late!!
den rush to e court, we had friendly with some J2s ppl
most of us didn't had our lunch, empty and hungry stomach

i played badly . i'm veri not into the game at first .
the whole team is playing in a mess .
yah, i panic . i see e scoring is so near,
started to panic all e way .

i did alot of mistakes, omg .
i'm back to square one, i can't control the tempo,
i can't control my emotions, i can't relax and think well

oh man .. i learn alot of moves, i know how to do de,
but simply i dun know why those stuff didn't come to my mind
when i'm playing but aft e game ended . i gt application problem lah
really true, when we panic, we can't play well .

i saw how e team play today, A'dvs is like digging our own grave
there's isn't much time left lah . hais . how?? everyone not even warm
up yet for A'dvs . everyone panic, in total mess . like the first few matches of
ISIBL or even worse . e team still veri reliant on that few main players,
when those players are out on bench, e contrast quite big de . it shouldn't
be the way, wad if those few players injured or no stamina alr? how??
and we need more team chemistry and teamwork and formations really.
total mess today, dun know wad should we do when attack . and our fast break,
too slow!!! hahas . cmi nia . court vision no gd sia .

i need to gain my confidence level, to trust my team as well as myself,
and able to control my emotion and temper and my point of view .
need to buck up !!! cannot be scared now . zhen zhuo zhen zhuo!!
i need alot of advices and guidance
"lost in a maze, trying to find my way out"

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JY !!
hahas . went meet her, xy and pr for dinner .
hahas . okie, i dun have e mood to type .
but overall, nice . hahas !!
going to bed soon, waking up at 5 to study for
CHEM SPA, having chem SPA skill A tml.
sian.okie . gd night

i can't wait to see u .

AHH stupid chem SPA,
skill A really troublesome esp for me,
this chem noob, need to memorise so much things
hahas!! and we keep on practising writing the
whole chem SPA skill A out . i wrote it the 3rd or 4th
time le . hahas . veri bored . cos veri long-winded
and i squeeze too much things inside my small brain,
now nth can goes in -.-

no point copying from notes right??
i still need to go memorise them again.
chem SPA on this WED . hahas .

hmwk undone : GP( alot, esssayS outline, AQ etc.),
CSE thesis (1000 words) by fri,
i wrote ZERO

hahas!!!! and common test coming soon,
haven start revising . hais .

i think my right ankle gt someproblems again -.-
when i rotate it, it will like get "stuck" at one of e point,
and it hurts quite a bit . but i dun remember injuring it,
although i did feel e pain on sat friendly . hais hais hais .
should see a sinseh?? hahas!! going have friendly on wed
lao le -.-

okie, needa go back to studies .
where are u? nvr online? misses .

me so so so tired now . hahas
just now went to celebrate jy's bday in advance.
quite fun though it rains, we bbq outside pr's hse
hope she really like it . hahas. not tt disappointing bah .
hahas . took quite alot of photos too. hahas.

it's so weird not chatting.even e msges only like a few each time u reply.i know is nth much.just feel odd though.all sudden havine e thought tt u going in army soon soon soon.really gonna miss u so much. though not realli cos of fang bu xia or wad,alr let go le, just plainly she bu de. it's gonna like mths or weeks dun get to msn-ing or msg.i scare aft u comeout,we won't be like how we are now.dun have this pig to fight and joke with me,although is nth much,but those stupid jokes and fights can brighten up my tiring day,feeling better.and u are one of e few tt understand me most.ma cham my lao pa.it's a blessing to know u, imagine u or me didn't come to pjc at first. things might be sososo different from now right? ="(