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hornets had friendly vs HCI today .
hahas . of course we lost . hahas .
oh, we gt about 12 to 14 ppl !!!
hahas!! whole team was present today .
coach arranged this friendly to test where
e team and individual's standard is .

we didn't train together b4,
no formations, nth,
we can't even remember some of our
own players' name . hahas .
but yah, i trying to remember all??

hahas!! let me try ...
stef, mei shi, babarah, kai yi, hui mei, blacky, pei rong,
xin yu, hidaya, shu man, bindy,nicole, me, yuhong*
yh not confirm playing with us still . hahas . not bad not bad!!
but i think a few of their names are spelled wrongly . hahas.
but mei shi only able to help us play women open,
and i and hidaya are not playing women open.
cos first time playing together, quite weird though,
no chemistry at all . plus we need quite alot of brushing up

but it's a potential team i believe,
we gt about, 5 centers/power forwards
our sizes varies quite a lot de . hahas!!
coach decided to increase e no. of trainings.
omg!! fri night, sunday morning . hahas!!
FRI !! sch training start at 4.45pm lah.
die die die . how sia . hahas .
is okie if i leave sch training at 6.30 or 7 pm right??
but if i leave at7, i'll reach there 7.30pm, and training start at 6?
zhe me ban ah zhe me ban?? hahas!!

i wan to play both A'dvs and youth cup, this is my choice,
but i know my studies i know tt .
somethings i realli need to sacrifice .
i'll need to stop going online at night while doing hmwk,
cos there's alot source of distractions when i on my laptop,
and this mean, i can't chat with him online !! AWWWW!!!

-.- is somehow becomes a habit to chat online .
somehow he's my ke lian de rubbish bin,
always listening to my complains and whinings,
but nvr fails to joke and "FIGHT" with me
brighten my day lah. cos sch really quite taxing de.
hais. but my online time must cut cut cut!!!
i need to focus on my studies!! yah STUDIES !!!
help me to ren k, need some encouragement de

hahas !! bball and studies are e two things i can't let go,
basketball is really my passion, i'm provided a chance for both
A'dvs and Youth Cup, i can't let go of both, although i know veri well,
choosing both is realli pushing myself down into a well,
but i dun wan to give up, and studies is my main priority,
and he's going in army soon, so "train" myself from now onwards.
she bu de,but no choice . bball and studies is part of me .
but he should not and must not be for now .

i love training today .
i feel like playing bball again.
i feel i'm playing real bball again .
thanks guys . really .
i haven feel like playing real bball for veri long time le.

A'dvs de grouping is out.

Guys: VJC, ACSI, IJC, tpjC, PJC
( most prob can enter 2nd round le)

Girls:RI(RJC), YJC, DHS, PJC

but HCI's grouping is wad i wanted lo,
if we replace TJC is really my ideal grouping,
HCI, IJC, MI, TJC **SIANs** !!!!!
cos my ideal grouping : HCI, IJC, MI, PJC
OMG !!! just miss by tt bit lo -.-
but alteast 3 of us didn't vs each other this yr,
so is a gd thing actually . ppl JIA YOU bah .


Life's so fragile and short .
cherish it .

tiring tiring day -.-
doze off during chemlecture for 15 mins
hahas . e lecturer goes one big round to
explain something . e more he say, e more
"sotong" i get . hahas . in e end during tutorial,
my teacher only spend 15 mins and i understand le

quickly went home to rest . TIRED . hahas!!
watched princess hour last epi . hahas!!
nice nice, like princess hour alot .
prince shuai,princess pretty . hahas!!
random -.-
efeelingsstilltanglingthere.althoughnotttstrongle.butstillmissusometimes
did part/most of my hmwk le . going bed soon.
tml e teacher will draw e groupings for A'dvs.
OMG !! God bless me and my team k .
let us gt e gps with those lousy schs in it pls,
and seeded team is HCI pls pls pls!!! hahas!!
yah, no turning back le,
gotta play on .

IS NOT CRAP POST K !!
hahas!! is just some random thoughts

had chem test today .
as usual, i dun know how to do,
even i did go and revise like 3.30 am in e morning?
hahas!! had training just now.
run 20 rounds around 3 bball courts under an
EXTREMELY HOT SUN . u can feel ur skin like
kena burnt, can feel the heat still .

aft e run, wah! all sudden dark grey clouds!!
and den RAIN !! e weather ma cham playing a fool
with us . when we run, extreme hotness .
finish run, extreme coldness .
we trained physical, j1 and 2s together .
hahas . it's quite tiring de . having some aches nw.
when training about to end, we saw RAINBOW !!
veri nice semi-circle one !! it since ages tt i last saw
such a nice and beautiful RAINBOW !!
went church aft training, cos today is Ash Wednesday

i felt emptiness, i feel tt i'm not happy
dun know why, i just feel something is missing
something is not right . am i going to regret??
do i really have to change my perspectives??
going through e "downs" part of e journey nw

there this devil in me,
keep making me having this dislike feeling
on **** . cannot say wad's e **** due to some reasons.
shouldn't dislike to the pt of wanting to hate ****
but i just can't control feeling tt way .
is veri irritating actually .

having evil thoughts of how to hai ****
veri bad right!!! i also feel i'm veri bad too.
but sometimes being a bad person,
feels better too . dun wanna care .
see how things goes now .
i might turn towards e DARK side .

chem test tml . sighs...

i doubt..
really have no faith and trust .
should i ?? should i let go??
back to square one .
maybe it's just not where it belongs
no meanings to it . do it cos i need to,
not cos i want to . willi i really be happy??
just hope everything quickly finish and done with
i need a tree...

angered, hurted, lost lamb,
waiting for e shepherd

went for morning mass. needa wake up quite early de.
hahas . saw someone, and she told me something veri meaningfull?
using solid, liquid and gas to represent e way things shape our life?
we have the choice to choose to be solid, liquid or gas .
. solid: stubborn or stand firm on own thinking,
be the one who decide ur own choice,
not affected by what others says
. liquid: flexible or go with the flow,
easily affected by others feelings/thoughts
. gas: keep on compressing inside till one day it just burst out
or like a balloon, knowing to let go slowly, bit by bit

all this while i unintendedly chose to be liquid-gas.
easily affected by what others say/feelings/thoughts,
keeping everything and burden to myself, covering them out

i realise all these while, i kept on compressing myself,
neglected tt God is present, not seeking for His Strength,
actually He provided me with this chance to grow as a leader,
but i didn't realise tt, He did helped me through all these while,
esp through those times of difficulties, i nearly gave up before .

i needa be strong, depend and seek for Him more,
everything is just gonna be fine in e end.
He give me this role, He will help me through.
so i just need to hang on, and continue to seek on.

went to study with jy and joash.
JY stop asking, trust me okie??
trust pr,yh,pz,me,pz,blacky,xy.
i believe our sincerity and effort will touch u on tt day.
e sincerity and true feelings and love tt we have for u,
this will be the best present for u .
dun feel disappointed now first. hahas

had napfa test early in e morning . hahas .
when reached sch gt a shocked .
i think i'm quite blur, cos e paper wrote 8 am start,
so i assume 8am report, so i told e team be in sch by 7.50am
BUT i'm WRONG . omg!!! is report at 7.45, be in sch by 7.30!
yah, own gp of us LATE . hahas . mr kwok shouted at us . hahas!
ma lu nia . sorry peeps . hahas . i'm blur at times . hahas .

we did our 5 stations first, everything went on quite well,
. incline pull-up(A): 25,
. shutter run(A): 10.9s, re-run 3 times cos e blocks keep slip off
. standing broad jump(D/C)(most worried):1.74m !!
OMG !! i last yr jump 1.57m nia. hahas!!
. sit-ups(A):32 cos 31 is A alr,
. sit-&-reach(i dun even gt pass nt):31cm !!!
WTH -.- hais . jia lat sia . dun know why cannot stretch!
ahhh!!! must re-take this station during pe lesson le .

lastly lastly 2.4k run : 12.24 mins !!! *S.H.O.C.K.E.D*
during trainings my fastest timing is 12.58 mins,
ave timing is 13.15mins . really surprised . hahas !!!
Super Happy!! dun ask me how did i do it, but i really did it.
hahas . maybe cos under veri big pressure.
peer pressure, i gave myself pressure, e surrounding de pressure
cos all e ppl running is from sports ccas, and when i run, MR YAW !
when i ran pass him he shouted at me:
" YOU BETTER RUN BACK BEFORE 13.0 mins!
IF NOT DON"T COME BACK AND FIND ME !"
damn loud lah . hahas . he monitored my timing too .
but along e tracks there's ppl cheering me on, and up @
e band rm, candice they all were up there cheering on too.
Thanks peeps! cos i nearly died during the last 2 rounds.
12.24 min !! wahahas .
random thoughts: i wonder wad will my life be like if i didn't come pjc, didn't join bball? will it be better or worse?
went to study with jy.. super not efficient .
okie, back to studies...

i shall not complain . i'm at fault too.
dun wanna depend on anyone,
except my dunearn teamates .
having them is enough,
they understand, they give e support i need,
esp jy, she really understand me, i'm really
touched . it's gonna be hard, although i dun hav
e confidence to do so, but will try my best to e end.


if u think tt ur attitude towards Magnus and training is right,
so be it, u can just dun come for training and back to ur CO .
we dun need such a player in the team

doing CSE case study...
i nvr dislike doing case study qns b4..
but this one!!omg . is not tt i dun know how
to do. but e ans to the qns are realli super
duper long . omg . writing and writing and writing .
ma cham essay qns . OMG !!!!
still hav long way to go...

and mr chan told us we gonna do 10 case study in 3 wks?
it's so gonna kill me .

not feeling well....
lots of hmwk & tests this week
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!!!

just bath.. training ends about 8 .
tired of course . but fruitfull one??
we trained alot today . hahas .
lay-ups drills, shooting drills, defence,
running, and also formation . hahas .
but at least today's attitude is better though.
really quite satisfied with today's performance
but not mine. tui bu le . i know tt. i can sense tt too .
my on court judgement quite cmi de . or very??
sorry, me really not a gd leader.

yah, jiayou ppl!!! since we decided to go for A'dvs,
pls put in as much effort u guys can,
i dun wan go there and come back with regrets k

she replied me : " it can be hard and tough at times,
but keep in mind our initial PASSION and DRIVE
we all shared. "

really touched my heart. yes! JIAYOU
ppl if my words are too harsh or not nice ,
pardon me k, i dun scold for e sake of scolding,
but i really want to see more improvements and
not at this level . there's alot of things to be done,
but e time is really running short le .

i'm sorry for my quick-temper and hot-headedness,
and i really expect more than this from u guys.
our main AIM : A'dvs, hold this true in ur heart k

dui bu qi!! i'm sorry .
i dun mean tt really . dun so cold okie?
i feel so guilty now . but realli do appreciate
u coming down de . really . sorry, make u bad mood
getting to see u, somehow really brighten up my day.
mayb i'm just a lousy leader, can't control e team well.
quite a failure though. e team seem like falling apart.
veri unprepared of A'dvs . those team talks somehow
dun seem to be of any use . getting pi juan le .
u guys really wants to play a'dvs??
i ask this not cos i'mstill choosing between A'dvs and youth cup.
cos i might end up playing both. but my heart alr set to play A'dvs.
cos is my duty and a chance for me to do so .
it's gonna be a huge huge obstacle u all know tt??
are we prepared to go for tt battle?? nt much time left.
mayb u guys just dun understand .

i think everyone has their own problems to solve,
own problems tt nobody will ever understand,
saying so much dun make a diff, as they are not u,
they can't provide with solutions tt fit u the best .
mei you ren hui liao jie de .

really happy and contented,
u really treat me veri nice,
even aft my birthday.

gt a shocked early in the morning when i reached sch .
hahas . e team gave me e big big size chickmunk for my birthday.
omg!! thanks so much ppl !!! po fei le ... hahas
and i carried tt chickmunk everywhere i go . hahas .
alot of ppl stare at me . -.- hahas !!!

went home aft econs remedial den to hospital to visit my ahma
hahas . den online . someone surprised me lah . really didn't expect
u to remember the date . hahas . cos i thought to u is not something
tt u will go remember de . i thought only i'll remember tt only .
but u remembered it and also the date even . hahas . veri happy!!
ya, quite true, maybe feelings will fade, but memory really don't .

i'm officially 18 years old !!! wahahas .
thanks you for e gifts and stuffs...
and thank you for those tt wishes me =D
xie xie !! =DD


birthday girl had training early in the morning .
hahas . quite tiring de . hahas.
aft tt went home,get changed, den meet up again
at marina sq, walk around den to e flyer....
to eat popeye!! hahas . they bought an ice cream cake for me!
hehes . thanks os much!! den we headed down to
One Fullerton de starbucks to chill...
and i took alot alot of pics . hahas!!!
den home-d =D so tired...
fei tian xiao zhu smile smile yeah . i'm sorry, i didn't know my words are too harsh le.
but these few days u realli treated my veri nice, feeling veri happy =D
i dun know what exactly happens between u guys,
but i believe nth will ever change our 6th year of friendships
it's more than just normal friendship isn't it ?
it will be a friendship tt last a lifetime

ytd night, gt e news tt my ah ma admitted into hospital,
yah again . for these 5 years plus she has been going in and out
of NUH. she admitted into CCU, due to unregular heartbeat .
CCU, omg . shocked me ytd nigth when my parents called back.
at tt moment, we dun know should be worried a not .
everytime she admitted to hospital, or enter ICU, she will come
out fine aft a few days . but this time round CCU, should be still hold
a thinking tt she will be fine?? wad if we think tt way but in the end
she don't?? waited untill 12 plus to 1 am,when my parents came back.
upon hearing her condition has stable, den more fang xin.

sometimes really dun trust NUH de, their service not tt gd de.
it's not the first time they scare us like this . got once, say untill
so kong bu tt if my ah ma coma, den wan to put life-supporting machine?
but the actual condition is not tt serious . sometimes, will keep dragging,
gt once, cos e hospital quite packed, den must wait for e ward,
cos no space . my father waited from 11 am plus to evening lah .
for like around 6 hours my ahma is put on e bed and park at one corner
with rest of those patients. they are ill leh, how can park them at
one corner for like 6 hours?! most of them are elderly, and the hospital
quite cold de. why can't just put them in some B1 de wards first, when
there empty beds in B2 wards den transfer down? e hospital dun lose
any money by doing tt de right?

later will be going over to visit my ah ma . sure veri noisy de. all e cousins
and aunts and uncles there . hahas . havin slight headache ...

as i walked back home from sch,
e whole stretch of road is so quiet and peaceful,
many thoughts run through my mind . hahas ,
i'm veri surprised and proud of myself tt i've
get through it, i learn to let go le . although there might
still hav tt little feelings mingling inside, but yah...
i'm more of "myself" now . xin jie da kai le...
let time does e talking, i believe it's God's will .

ytd night talk to one "long lost" friend .
not realli "long lost", just tt it since veri long
tt we ever talk to each other . hahas .
he's a joker indeed . but i'm surprise and taken
back when i heard tt he and his gf broke up le.
they'vs been together for so long, both veri den dui
i thought they will last a lifetime couple . cos e photos
look so blessed . hahas . so unpredictable right??
he told me, although e girl love him alot,he do still
hav feeling for e girl,but just feel tt they suit for each other.
realli unpredictable . sometimes i really wonder,
is there really any love relationship tt will last a lifetime?
even e most blessed couple can break up just like tt .

oh, if u wanna know what career u suit the most,
go to ecareers.sg den go to e assesment section and do e test
i can be a KINDERGARTEN PRINCIPAL !! hahas!!
okie back to hmwk le

early in e morning, i had a damn idiotic, pissed off
scolding from my dad and mum... long story...
but is not entirely my fault, but i need to carry all e blames
hello!! not fair k! still say i say somemore he will slap me.
wth!! if he slap he won't see me back home anymore .

in sch, eyes red red, my ct gt a shocked. and asked me to go
out and talk to him . hahas. but i'm alright already. just tt
i can't forget how my father stared and show his fist at me.
hello,i'm alr going 18, show me some respect can??
not everything u use violence can solve e problem k..
and i'm a girl for goodness sake .

aft sch, went back home to bath and change, went to
clementi sports hall to watch B'dvs match . steppin
into e sports hall realli flash back alot of memories .
if i'mplaying A'dvs this yr, it will be my 6th yr le .
so fast right? hahas . but it will be the 6th and the last yr le.
saw how my juniors played, i believe their standard shouldn't
be just this. but they really at disadvantage in terms of age and size.

went to meet jl for dinner . hahas some buffet resturant @atrium
is somewhere nobody won't thought tt there will be a buffet there,
but e food there not bad leh, is nice, espe soup . veri veri nice . hahas.
is a veri quiet place, but big enough and e service damn gd . hahas .
they clear plates veri fast . veri automatic kind . hahas .
took bus home.

mood: delighted
pigs are learning how to fly....

having a veri bad backache just now when i'm taking a nap.
is not pain, but those suan suan, den ci ci kind of pain .
dun know why will hav backaches suddenly also . hahas .

pe lesson today...
standing broad jump!!
omg . my weakest station .
every yr due to this sbj, i can't get my gold
-.- doesn't mean basketballer must know how to jump k
hahas!! buden every week of jumping stairs did paid off
improved by 10 cm sia!! hahas!! surprisingly .

i'm getting sick of u two de stupid attitude
mayb u did really hav e little of tt talent,
i dun care, neither do i have to gain ur respect.
it's becoming a sore eye to me. it takes two hands to clap.
if u can't be bothered, why must i? if u can't commit,
dun come and waste our time. actions speaks louder
than words. stop giving excuses

i'm tiring out ...
hate how e things are going nw.

i know e choice of whether i want to play which, i keep on bothering u
can sense tt u felt irritated. but i realli dun know how.
i feel tt u are someone tt will be able to help me. sorry .

e two just sent me a forever friends msges.
u guys realli treat me as ur best of friends.
but... i not sure about mine to u all.

i'm really not in a clear mind/state to make any decision
even during training today, i'mveri lost of wad to do..
i dun feel gd.

i'm so..i dun know . u seldom/ nvr praise me de .
i kept hearing my bad pts from u . am i really tt bad?
instead i always hear u praise other ppl to me.
i know i gt a lot of flaws, but did u ever notice my gd?
even if i change, u won't see tt too, isn't it?
everytime u say, is tt u notice another bad pt of me.
or ur opinion changed bad about me. did u ever find gd about me?
i need e team and ur support and understanding to e choice i made,to u there isn't a need, to me, yes, there is a need, it's just diff mindset lah.u can bu gu anything and make a choice. this is u, i can't . youth and A'dvs both means alot to me . i dun wan to regret wad i chose in the end.
i dun know, i feel we yue lai yue cannot communicate.
maybe to u, it doesn't matter whether it get worse anot .
but i mind . i felt tt we are more mo shen le . is like more and
more frequent tt we end up arguing with each other .
is not wad i want u know!!

i feel i becoming more and more childish.
imature to think properly .
am i really tt pampered and bu li zhi?
it's not gonna be a swt 18 i suppose...
i wanna live my own life, i dun want wad u say bothers me, or i feel tt affected.wo yao zhou dao.yi ding yao zhuo dao.is my life i know!! it takes time bah right?
i made e decision to play A'dvs .
is not e actual choice i wanted.
but i'll feel better choosing to play A'dvs.
i dun wan to be so selfish .

i should make my own decision right?
shouldn't let wad others says/think control my life
it's my choice, the path i want to walk .
i'm like at junction with 2 exits,
not knowing which way to go.
this is my path, it will be my choice.

i dun wanna regret wad i choose in the end
maybe to u all A'dvs is more impt .
and is my last yr too . but for now,
i know if i choose A'dvs, it's not a choice
of wad my heart is with . everyone has
his/her own way of thinking, i have mine too.
maybe u guys won't understand why i
wanted youth cup so much compared to A'dvs.

e desire to play for A'dvs, is something
similar to e desire of me playing in youth cup.
i hope to have u all de understanding and support.
but i haven comes to a final decision yet..
gonna meet with e teachers, see wad they say bah.
scalli i die die need to play A'dvs, den i dun even need
to choose le . okie bedtime...

had hornets training just now in e morning . although there's only 6 ppl,
but our training focused on techniques to penetrate. learn quite alot .
veri fruitful actually, i learnt quite alot .
and also e moves i wanted to learn, e moves is e one i saw on a video de
although not veri shou lian, gt grab e technique to do it le .

went studying with jy,pz, pr and her hard candy . hahas
veri tired...

i actually i think i had a choice in mind alr. but i kept on
pondering on other factors and stuff . i know i shouldn't
think so much but to follow wad's in my heart .
but it's diff . realli diff . i'm sorry, i'm not firm with my choice.
i'm so mao dun . why can i duo duan yi dian...

pr just now also did say, playing bball should be a veri happy thing,
but why am i so troubled over it?
think wisely or just follow where my heart leads to?

if i really choose youth cup in e end,
i hope u ppl understands....

i bought my bball shoes!!! finally . hahas .
i feel it is not bad, quite nice de .
but jy keep saying not nice!! =x
bought it at$111, yah a bit bo hua .
but no choice, my feet size 7, super diff to find
bball shoes . i went to e others shops for tt shoe,
all sell it at $97 lah . but dun hav size 7 -.-
so no choice . how i wish my feet is 1 size bigger .

went to ah ma hse, cos whole family is there to see my canadian grandaunt .
almost everyone is there, except my da gu de two eldest son and daughter .
they are always not around during these families gathering de .
since ages tt i last seen them lo. alot alot of people . hahas . super noisy .
we ordered buffet, e food was not bad, esp e jelly-kueh like dessert .
took groups photos with my grandaunts . e 6 daughter-in-laws(aunts),
e 3 daughters(gu gu), 6 sons (uncles), 19 grandchildren(2 nvr come) .
my father-side family is big, but my mum's size is even larger .
reaching to about 50 ppl le . hahas!! quite kong bu de . hahas!!
really is zi sun man tang . hahas . hav "chit chat" with e few cousins,
cos about e same age, others veri young . hahas . den we started to talk
about some leng xiao hua, my sis is damn slow -.- hahas!!
i think my grandma and my family is really blessed cos we are
really quite a big family, quite close to one another too .
hope they do cherish it, and dun fight with each other over some
small matters or money, there isn't a need to right? we are one family,
blood related still, cos realli felt is a blessing, something tt other
people might not have, something so close to me .

okie tml needa go 7.30 ammass den to hornets training .
hopefuly coach won't torture us ah . hahas!!
tml only gt 7 ppl -.- hais . pathetic .
okie bedtime!! gd night!!
and is like about 20 mins before wei quan's birthday .

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY WEIQUAN !!! =D

still having muscle ache . pain pain . hahas .
had trials just now, okie lah . can say better
from wad i expected. i felt somehow not so
stress out . there's still players tt can play just
tt need some polishing and trainings??
i realli do wish tt it won't disappoint me .
i gt a few players . but i waiting for e aes girl's
reply too . hopefully she joins?
i stiprefer zai working de u although i might get jealous about some stuff but atleast u are living happily and fufilling, enjoying and laughing everyday and more like a human. now de u like si qi chen chen. and i also can't help u much either. hopefully 14 april comes soon(although i dun wan it to)
today, 2 injury incidents, 3 ppl gt minor injury.
jeanette injured her ankle/feet while playing 3-on-3
i saw how she fell lah . and there's something hard
like protruding her feet or something -.-
jl come back to help us . hahas .
but he accidentally bang onto one of e j1
she flew and fell on e floor . omg .
e whole scene just in front of me again .
SHOCKED . i was at a moment of shocked.
cos e girl, she's called qian mei, is small in size,
and jl is like "rock" lah . hahas . jl his lips bleed,
and she gt a blueblack on her face . both veri ke lian .
everyone veri shocked also . hahas . but both gt bruise
on their legs . she's veri funny, keep saying it's okie.
but can see veri painfull . i kena knocked by tt "rock"
before, i know how painful it is . hahas .



my canadian grandaunt came . hahas .
she's damn cute and lively . she keep trying to
find something to do eg. fold clothes and wash dishes
my mum keep insist cannot . cos she's our elderly .
den two of them keep play tug-of-war with e dishes and
the basket of laundry . hahas!!! so cute, 2 adults fighting over
household chores . okie, tml gonna go buy bball shoes if i can
find e one i wanted . hahas . bedtime!! gd night!

finally can get some rest and not so stressed up . hahas .
but needa do chem tutorial still . hahas .
just mass send 18 ppl a 2msg long de sms . hahas .
plus my usual amt of msges i send, hahas!!!
my phone bill so gonna burst . hahas!!

having muscles ache!! from butt downwards .
veri painfull. hahas . have difficulties going down e stairs.
tml there will be bball trials . i had 19 names .
but i dun know how many will turn up. i hope atleast 3/4??

some of these j1s reply are veri funny .
some asked how we conduct e trials?
is there any running involved??
sound as if we are going torture them or
ask them to do some diff stunts.
relax ppl . hahas!! not so kong bu .
just some simple drills . hahas!!!

i hope majority are not tt bad .
although from e list can see mostly are beginners .
a bit chi li de .
okie . back to work...

[ 10 days to my swt 18 =D ]

12 more DAYS to my sweet 18!! update and change some stuff on my proposal again . realli hope it's okie . argh . i shouldn't take this subject . hahas . gt the list of new j1s whose former cca is bball . called and msged afe of them, there's potential players, but they seem not veri willing to join . omg . i need players!!! like URGENTLY, those slightly above average players . hais . tml, cca open hse.. just now i was listening to a disc.. den came across this song . this a veri old song i think, but it's veri nice ..
. song title: Glory of Love
i'll neither going to give up on u, but also not realli wait for u, just just "hibernate". unless there's really someone i fated to be with . i'm happy for how it is now . just hope tt we'll still stay in contact even if u're in army,not like monica, cos she's somehow like mia. miss her alot.

i'm finally done with my cse proposal . i dun know whether is acceptable not . but i really tried my best to do . see how it goes . do untill my brain wanna crack open le . okie . needa go complete my hmwk . hahas .
me veri tired -.-
i really get over it. hahas. didn't expect it to be possible. i hope it stays this way or even "normal". scare won't last long..

cse proposal is killing me.... omg .

oh man!! i realli dun know . A'dvs?? it's really taking a great risk kind of thing.
i can't be selfish in both ways. is not as easy to choose as u think, there's many factors i need to consider and think about . i can't wei le zi zhi and choose the choice . i'm realli confused.
i dun understand wad u guys are thinking seriously .

stupid cse proposal is killing me .