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everything doesn't seem to goes right. wo hen bu kai xin!!!
had a small "conflict" again. ya, i know i'm wrong, and at fault . sorry for my ren xing . i know ni wei wo hao . i'm veri xin wei actualli aft e conflict and i reflect back . i dun know hw things gonna progress in e future, but i'm gonna stay on. i nvr make such a decision b4, i hope i won't regret. for now, i'll try to focus on my studies, i'm trying to create some interest of me towards my studies. which i had promise u, and u too promise me to concentrate in there . i still have quite a lot of homework undone . i saw my new timetable, omg, it sucks. realli . longer duration for each lessons . and i haven finish making e present, and the date is so near! okie, going back to gp hmwk already .

e qns whether to stay in e sch team or quit and just focus on youth cup kept in my mind for quite some time, i need to make a decision somehow. i only can choose one, A'dvs or Youth Cup. many ppl, of course, encourage me to choose youth cup, a better team, better environment, better chances of winning . of course, basketball isn't just simply putting tt orange ball into the hoop, isn't about winning the game . it's about teamwork, teamspirit, team play, team bond. in sch i'm a captain, in hornets i'm a player . jl did ask me this b4 also, u want to be in team of all newbies, and by ur effort/encouragement plus e coach and bring this batch of newbies up to a greater height, joinning A'dvs if possible or a team with stable and good standard, and win matches like li suo dang ran de? in sch, standard of e team compare to hornets is obviously huge huge huge gap. a team trying to earn a chance to play in A'dvs and a team striving to get top 4 in youth cup . who likes e taste of losing, no one does. frankly speaking i dun, i hate it, A'dvs 2008 is the worst defeat i ever experienced . total rubbish . i know e coach tried his best, i tried mine too somehow. i dun wan e history to repeat itself again, i dun wan e same defeat, e same "look-down" sight of e others, mocking at us . we tried, we realli did, but do e public sees tt, no i dun think so. i dun wan to sent a team to let ppl mock at. ya i know, my teamates really wish to play in A'dvs . but e effort and standard really not there, some still dun get/know wad's basketball realli is about . we mayb bonded and close with each other, but somehow i still dun find my heart belong there .

A'dvs and ISSBLE is realli a diff type of standard, we can't even play well in ISSBLE wad about A'dvs? i realli dun know . maybe e inner me has already come to a decision already, to leave e team no matter whether there's good players joinning in, unless it realli let me see tt hope again, but i have this responsibility tt i can't let go, it's pulling me back. making me dun know wad to do. is not because e standard of e team tt i make my decision on, but on where i feel tt my heart realli belongs to. if i realli choose to leave in e end, pls forgive me. my heart still belongs to my 4 yrs of friendship de team, the stuff and e past of what i and them gone through together is realli beyond wad words can describe. i still find my real sense of belonging there, i need support through my bball journey, i need understandings, real understanding of me, and not walking on e path feeling alone.

sometimes i felt insecured and scared,
thoughts just ran wild inside my mind.
but i know it shouldn't be the way .
things will change, me too...
it gonna be a brand new me .