28 April 2008 9:18 PM
lost all the matches . played more bad to worst . and ppl stop asking about the scores !! lost terribly jiu shi le . i'm now still in the shocked, unbelieve and dishearted . there's nothing/ no one to blame . maybe we just lost to our ownself . or should say we indeed lost to our ownself . weak mental thinking, weak in physical . we aren't that lousy dun we? ppl train hard, we do train as hard . we still lost . wth .
it's the first time i lost all the matches in my grouping in my 5 years of bball lofe . first time . and drastically lost . the impact veri strong . and i came to realise how i missed my dunearn teamates . is not tt i dislike this current team . they have their good points too, they are as dearly too . but 4 years memo just cannot be compared . hw i wish time can reverse . i miss them badly !! real badly . just hope we can play together on court again . vs-ing each other suck . so weird .
first time losing all and drastically . somehw demoralised me quite a lot and lost confidence . am i helping the team ?? or i just hai le ta men? confused!!
jieying msged me aft my game . thanks a lot!! i was trying to hold back my emotions . hahas !! but still burst into tears . aft some encouragement, yeah !! i dun hav such a weak self-confidence do i ?? i dun wan to fall back to a no- confidence past again . standing up again is diff and i'll waste my time . confidence!!!!! but i need support, i'm too used to relying on my teamates . bad habit i know .
huge lesson learnt . BASICS = IMPORTANT !! no basic no play . hope our upcoming team can ling wu this thingy which i now realli had an eye opening and ling wu dao le . must train hao our basic !!!! no time for jokes . there's plenty to learn and buck up .