15 November 2009 9:33 PM
feels: sian ( in e mid of A's)
half way through the super draggy A's . tired
lots of worries, anxiousness, disappointments, fears
everyday keep on wad if wad if wad if?? i really scare i
end up in SIM, which i really don't want . arghh...
wad if, i really end up choosing another?
i don't want to ying man ni, cos i think is unfair to you.
i don't know hw to tell u. but actually for few weeks, 4-5weeks?
before, during A's and now, i, jy and him have been studying together. we have been msg-ing too . i'm so sorry . i know u will feel very shity about me. i'm sorry . i did think before, yah wad will happen aft he enter army? evrything will be like something e same again . will i change my heart half way through? i chose him le. i'm sorry . after going to 10 mths of u going army, i know so much better and clearly, how it is like, i outside and another inside army. i didn't promise him, tt within e 2 yrs of army i'll for sure wait for him. but i'll try my best . and i believe, his faithfulness and love is worth me waiting. and now is purely up to me whether i can pass this time barrier. i'm sorry . we're still hao peng you right? u're still e most caring brother .